[:] ZuLFaDLi [:]

2007-02-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

i'm still alive.. so don't worry...

2007-01-21T16:31:00.000+08:00

im forcing myself to blog... interesting eh.. wth....
aniway.. very very very belated happy new year to all... hope it will be a better year den before.... i've never had a new year resolution before... coz i dun haf the confident to make them come true.... but not dis year i guess... so my resolution is dat i wanna pass my driving test on 5 July 2007!!! as for the rest let it be love, luck, perfect first date, i'll juz let fate do it's job.... its still a long way to go... but my heart is still longing for you....

aniway, i feel like my mum is not giving me much freedom... it happened when me, my sis n 2 of my cousins went for a night riding.... since my sis juz passed her driving license, we went for an outing at nite... went for supper and hang out.... den it was 3am, my mum sms me n asked wat time are we gonna get home... n she was being sarcastic asking if we were going home after Subuh or wat.... haiz..... n she even said dat was the first and the last outing.... cant believe she said dat seh...... i wud understand if i went out wif my frens n came home very late... but its juz me, my sis n cousins..... all family related... n no underage.... n its not like we do stupid things like drink alcohol or take drugs or go racing... we dun even wanna get ourselves in trouble.... haiz........

till the next post...

i miss you...

====================
Samsons - Kutemukan Cinta
====================
Seperti kau bahagiakan aku
Seperti itulah kasihku kepadamu
Sesungguhnya aku merindukan cinta
Sampai kau hadir memberiku harap

[chorus]
Kutemukan cinta
Di palung hatimu
Izinkanlah aku
Untuk menyelami yang terdalam

Terangi jalanku
Untuk menggapai cintamu
Untuk kulabuhkan
Separuh jiwaku hanya untukmu
====================

2006-12-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

wanted to blog earlier.. but dunno y i've been doing other things instead... since im not working today, i've spent most of my time sleeping... n for those who've been wondering where am i working, im now part of the Bean family lah babe... hi Zul! welcome onboard~! haha!! wth... yea.. im now working as a barista at Coffee Bean, Cable Car Plaza outlet together wif dat manager's favorite twin crew... ;p working there is very tiring especially wen tourists flock by to dat area where the Sky Tower, Luge, Skyride, Butterfly Park, 4D Magix is.... so many attractions equals to soooo many ppl... but working there is fun lah.. get to learn new stuffs.... make new frens.. meet different type of ppl... free food n drinks... get paid... n get extra $5 everyday... haha!

best of all the crew is fun to work wif lah.... but im not sure bout Christ.. everyone been saying dat shes a strict manager... hmm.. i dunno... i've never work wif her around.... Nazera is nice... she taught me Ice Blended n Espresso & Brew.. im only done wif IB coz b4 dat Nurul taught me too... cant blame me y im still not done wif EB coz theres no time for me to learn.... dat place is totally busy everytime... n coincidently, Nurul is from ITE Dover taking IT too.... n same year! haha! no wonder she looks familiar eh... Afiq taught me IB too... even though he taught me wif nonsense "interpretation", i still got it in my head... Syaiful is ok too.... he taught me how to steam milk.... Afiq n Syaiful r from different outlet.. but they're still easy to mix around wif... next i met George, Premjit n Wira... George is from Philippines... n Prem is from Malaysia.... Wira live juz one block away from me... lol! George likes to look at beautiful women... Prem is also known as the singh from Usop Sontorian... as wat Nazera thinks bout him... hahaha~! n amazingly, Prem knows how to speak not only English n Punjabi, he also speaks Malay n Chinese... gd eh.... den i met Liza, juz an attached manager.. shes nice too... didnt talk much wif her but she made me pasta... hehe... next was Asari... dat big brother... haha! he likes to tease me... i dunno y.... n he told me dat he got a diploma in IT from Australia... entah betol ke tak eh.... den i met Ravi... another attached manager from Holland V outlet... usuali ppl might think dat a male manager will be strict... but Ravi is nice lah.... n he lives in JB lah seh.... everyday he goes to work he haf to go thru the checkpoint... n yesterday i met Keith n Kak Nana... Keith is friendly.... i can work easily wif him even though i juz met him for the first time... he tried making Belgian Latte i think n he made sum for me n Wira.... but it was too sweet lah... haha... Kak Nana is another attached manager from Fuji Xerox Towers outlet... i called her Kak Nana coz she keeps calling me adek n also her age is the same as my sis... heheee~

so these r the wonderful people i work wif... including Fiqa n Fiza lah.... no need to mention coz i've alreadi known u.... all so nice ppl... making it a fun place to work at....

so till den... another working day 2morrow.... n btw i still dunno y i always haf to do closing... haiz.....

i miss you!!

2006-12-18T14:52:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you ?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger .

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

found dat in one of the emails i got... n it got me thinking.... like y am i having all these weird feeling and dreams bout dat particular someone.. it must have been love rite...

dont u noe dat i care bout u more den anyone else except for my family..
dont u noe dat i think bout u every single day...
dont u noe dat i miss u n i worry when u miss me too, but it hurts when u don't....

but after taking the risk, i still think dat things are still unclear.. i dun feel special even though i noe... sumtimes i feel like giving up... but letting go seems very hard.. time will tell i guess...

mungkin ada hikmah di sebaliknya...

"Bila yang tertulis untukku, adalah yang terbaik untukmu. Kan kujadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku..."

=================
Samsons - Bukan Diriku
=================
Setelah kupahami aku bukan yang terbaik
Yang ada di hatimu
Tak dapat kusangsikan
Ternyata dirinyalah yang mengerti kamu
Bukanlah diriku ..

Kini maafkanlah aku
Bila aku menjadi bisu kepada dirimu
Bukan santunku terbungkam
Hanya hatiku berbatas 'tuk mengerti kamu
Maafkanlah aku..

[chorus]
Walau ku masih mencintaimu
Ku harus meninggalkanmu
Ku harus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Ku harus merelakanmu

Dan hanyalah dirimu
Yang mampu memahamiku
Yang dapat mengerti aku

Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang sanggup menyanjungmu
Yang ramah menyentuhmu
Bukanlah diriku..
=================

2006-12-14T17:26:00.000+08:00

finally yesterday, my dad was at home for the nite... its not dat he ran away from home but he haf been working in the nite shift for bout more den a week.. n its nonsensical when he said dat he didnt get an off day.... wth.. n we actuali planned to go JB today since hes not working but postponed to Friday instead... dammit... i've alreadi planned to go out wif my frens on Friday!!

n finally, tests week is over!!! Phase Test was ok... Cisco's online exam was "good"... lol! Class Test was bad... very very bad.... i totally flunked dat one.... but wth.. its over! 2morrow the whole IT department will be having the End of Year Party... hahaha!! n den it will be the start of the boring holiday~~~!!! yea~~~ welcome to the boring parade!!!

ok! now guess wat!! while im typing dis away, my mum told me dat we're going to JB later..... haizzzzzz....................... i wonder y ppl cant decide properly.... nvm... i'll update more next time... coz i will haf LOTS of time during d holiday....

2006-12-09T02:38:00.000+08:00

Cinta...Ada apa pada cinta? Memang semua manusia nak dibelai, dimanja, dikasihi, dicintai. Tapi sebenarnya ia menyakitkan. Dalam sekelip mata je kita kecewa. Tapi kekecewaan itu juga yg mengajar kita erti kehidupan. Memang seronok kalau dalam hati ada cinta.

Tiba-tiba je kita rasa kita suka seseorang tu. Cara dia bercakap, perangai dia... semua lah pasal dia kita suka. Kalau tak jumpa pun sehari hidup rasa tak sempurna. Semua benda yg kita buat tak kena. Tapi hidup kan penuh dengan pengorbanan.

Kadang-kadang dalam hidup ni sesuatu perkara yang berlaku tu tak pernah kita duga. Bila ia nak jadi, jadilah. Bila tak jadi, tak jadi lah. Hati dan perasaan satu perkara yg amat penting. Kita jumpa seseorang tu, kita suka pada dia. Tapi jodoh dan pertemuan Tuhan yg menentukan. Tapi nak buat macam mana kalau dalam hati ada cinta.

==================
Samsons - Akhir Rasa Ini
==================
Terlarut aku
Dalam kesendirian
Saat aku menyadari
Tiada lagi dirimu kini

Sampai kapankah
Aku mampu bertahan
Tertatih aku jalani
Semua kisah hidupku ini

[chorus]
Tak akan terganti
Setiap kenangan yang telah terukir
Yang terendap indah
Dan melekat di hati

Akankah berakhir
Semua rasa/kisah yang telah tercipta
Didalam benakku
Dan didalam asa-ku
==================

2006-11-30T19:04:00.000+08:00

finally its Thursday!!!!!!
i've always waited for Thursday every week... coz there will only be 2 hours of skool! but its Networking n it starts early... from 9am to 11am.... but its still 2 hours!!! n den Friday another 2 hours of WAD(Web Applications Development) n 1.5 hour of XS1 (dat is PE).. unlike other weekdays, skool starts in the afternoon n end at 5 or 6pm... n i dun reali favour long hours of Networking....

i juz did sumthin silly.. got home arnd 12pm... n den i wen to sleep arnd 1pm.. by dat time, my mum had gone for work n so im alone at home.. woke up arnd 6pm.... n it was raining very heavily.. n guess wat... found out dat the windows are opened!! so....... the room and the kitchen was wet! i actuali heard thunders b4 i fell asleep.. but silly me, i didnt close the windows.... n luckily the rain didnt spoil those fan, radio, tv n vcd player which is by the window in my room...

i've been waiting for my dad to tell me dat his friend is able to be my driving instructor since the day i passed my BTT... but habuk pun takde! haiz.....

"It is better to dream about a love because that way you'll always be together. And that love will always be forever."

2006-11-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

i've passed my Basic Theory Test!!!!

so yesterday was a guys day out for d cousins... while my sis went to watch Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical... dammit.. auntie Tiara, can u pls make another performance n i promise im gonna get a tix early... haha! how i wish she reads dis... ok so aniway, d guys juz walked around town... from Heeren to Wisma to Tangs, den Far East n Pacific Plaza... i was looking for a new wallet n in d end found a suitable Rip Curl wallet at Pacific Plaza.... it was hard trying to find a nice wallet wif a coin compartment... they think ppl dun use coins animore is it? wth.. so after dat we tot of chilling out at Hard Rock Cafe... but end up heading to d hawker centre at Harbourfront to eat n den to Vivo City.... bought a vintage Liverpool FC tee at Adidas... n i nearly bought a 1gb thumbdrive which only cost $48.. changed my mind coz i've alreadi spent alot... so throughout dat day, i've spent about $90+.... but satisfaction, priceless... haha!

aniway, who reads my blog eh? hmm.............

2006-11-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

ok! its time to update!! lots of things actuali happened since the last time i blog..

it was my birthday on the 28 Oct... but still i dun feel anything special bout it... but thanks alot aniway to those ppl whu remembered... especially Syirah, Fiqa n Fiza... even though the wish came about 20mins after 12 midnite... heh.. i still haf those msg in my hp... ;p or maybe shud i say thank u very very much.... coz guess wat.. my mum actuali forgotten dat it was my birthday... she wished me rite after she left for work in the afternoon.. :( but oh well... she is still my mum.... without her, life wud be a disaster i guess...

4th Nov, wen Hari Raya visiting wif d exTanglinian gang.. except for 1 whu havent graduate yet.. dat is Nadiah... lol... it was fun coz most of us haf not met each other for quite a long time... we talk, joke n juz simply having fun..

6th Nov, i've enrolled for my DRIVING LICENSE!!! n my Basic Theory Test is exactly next week, 24 Nov!!!!

11th Nov, it was my mum's birthday! didnt wen out on dat day coz my dad was working... so my mum cooked sumthin special....

12th Nov, Singapore 8th Motorshow!!! yea! wen there wif my sis n cousin... had fun feasting our eyes to beautiful cars n bikes.... n we got the chance to hop into sum of those cars too... but the best part dat day was watching a car stunt performance by Russ Swift... drift drift drift!!! haha..

16th Nov, Joseph & The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat @ ITE Simei!! the day i've been waiting for juz to meet wif Ms Brightside again after such a long time... is dat obvious enuf? ok let me make it even clearer... i miss her sooooo much lah.... i nearly decided not to go due to sum circumstances... n i nearly cant go coz Nadiah left my tix in skool.. but at the end of the day, it was one memorable night... especially watching dat particular sumone singing so gracefully... she got a nice voice indeed... so, i was thinking, wen can we duet? haha!

orite.. i'll end dis here for now... gonna update more soon....
btw check out my albums of those pic above at my Multiply site... http://zulbth.multiply.com
sign off.. ur new assitant class rep... hahaha!! wth..

2006-11-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

======================
Ada Band - Haruskah Aku Mati
======================
Bagaimana mestinya
Membuatmu jatuh hati kepada ku
Telah ku tulis kan sejuta puisi
Meyakinkanmu membalas cintaku

Haruskah ku mati karena mu
Terkubur dalam kesedihan sepanjang waktu
Haruskah kurelakan hidupku
Hanya demi cinta yg mungkin bisa membunuhku
Hentikan denyut nadi jantungku
Tanpa kau tau betapa suci hatiku
Untuk memiliki mu

Adakah keikhlasan
Dalam palung jiwamu mengetuk ku
Ajarkan mu bahasa perasaan
Hingga hatimu tak lagi membeku

Haruskah ku mati karena mu
Terkubur dalam kesedihan sepanjang waktu
Haruskah kurelakan hidupku
Hanya demi cinta yg mungkin bisa membunuhku
Hentikan denyut nadi jantungku
Tanpa kau tau betapa suci hatiku
Untuk memiliki mu

Tiadakah ruang di hatimu untuk ku
Yang mungkin bisa ‘tuk ku singgahi
Hanya sekedar penyejuk disaat ku layu
Ku s’lalu menantimu hingga akhir masa
======================

2006-10-25T08:47:00.000+08:00

2006-10-17T01:28:00.000+08:00

i'm down everytime i listen to "Aku Bukan Pilihan Hatimu".... juz read the lyrics... the song reali describe the state i'm in rite now.. but no one understands... i guess....

"Properly observing the fast brings on a comfortable feeling of peace and calm. It also allows Muslims to practice self-discipline, sacrifice, as well as sympathy for those who are less fortunate, which in turn makes Muslims more generous and charitable."

============
Ungu - Shalawat
============
Salatu 'Llah salamu 'Llah
'ala Taha rasuli 'Llah
Salatu 'Llah salamu 'Llah
'ala Yasin habibi 'Llah

Tawassalna bi-bismi 'Llah
Wa bi 'l hadi rasuli 'Llah
Wa kulli mujahidi 'l-li 'Llah
Bi-ahli 'l-badri Ya Allah

Salatu 'Llah salamu 'Llah
'ala Taha rasuli 'Llah
Salatu 'Llah salamu 'Llah
'ala Yasin habibi 'Llah

Ilahi sallimi 'l-ummat
Min al-a'ffati wa 'n-niqmat
Wa min hammi wa min ghummat
bi-ahli 'l-badri Ya Allah

Salatu 'Llah salamu 'Llah
'ala Taha rasuli 'Llah
Salatu 'Llah salamu 'Llah
'ala Yasin habibi 'Llah
============

2006-10-12T10:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY SIS!

even though i always dun share my problems n secrets wif u, u're still the best company i haf especially wen no one wants to go town wif me...
love ya!
oh yea.... happy 1st birthday to dat fat cat too...

"Selamat tinggal kasih
Sampai kita jumpa lagi
Aku pergi takkan lama
Hanya sekejap saja
Ku akan kembali lagi
Asalkan engkau tetap menanti"

2006-10-11T03:33:00.000+08:00

some ppl said dat the only way to make someone love u is to juz show dat u love them and eventually dat someone will feel ur love for them and realise how much they mean to u...

but wat happen wen u've been very concern n loving dat someone sincerely but u feel like u dont get anything in return? even though they might have told u dat u're loved by them, u still cant feel their love for u... u dont even know if they care about u... wats more wen they promised u dat u'll never lose them... but then u feel dat u're drifting apart.... was the promise reali is a promise? or janji tinggal janji? isnt it heartbreaking....

i know... been there, done dat..

n others said dat love requires sacrifices... if u're not willing to sacrifice for the one u love, then u're not ready to be in love. how true can dat be? i dunno...

i guess its better for me to stop dreaming.... dreaming for something dat i know it wont come true.. i know... i'm so stubborn..... i'm too much... who am i anyway?

i'm so tired of putting on dis "smiley-face mask"....

"Namun harus kuakui
Sukar untuk lepaskanmu
Akhirnya aku undur diri
Demi dia dan kamu"

but wat ever it is, you'll always be in my heart and i'll always be here for you... i'll still stand as a pillar in your life if you let me to... and if you can still agree with me bout dis, nothin can break dis special bond we have.. coz i'm also sure dat you'll never lose me. never...

"harus slalu kau tau
kumencintamu disepanjang waktuku
harus slalu kau tau
semua abadi untuk slamanya"

i'll do anything juz to make you happy... this is my sacrifice for you...

"How can I promise you forever when tomorrow is so far away from me? How can I dry your tears when I have a bleeding heart inside of me? how can I ever forget you when your name is etched so deep within me?"

2006-10-04T03:49:00.000+08:00

"The greatest distance on earth is not north and south, it is when I am right in front of you and you do not know that I love you."

=======================
Ungu - Aku Bukan Pilihan Hatimu
=======================
jika memang diriku
bukan lah menjadi pilihan hatimu
mungkin sudah takdirnya
kau dan aku takkan mesti bersatu

harus slalu kau tau
kumencintamu disepanjang waktuku
harus slalu kau tau
semua abadi untuk slamanya

[chorus]
karena kuyakin cinta dalam hatiku
hanya milikmu sampai akhir hidupku
karena kuyakin disetiap hembus nafasku
hanya dirimu satu yang slalu kurindu
=======================

2006-10-03T04:24:00.000+08:00

so hows the new skin? juz a simple n clean one... the pic at the top was from Gigi's album cover.. inspired from there n also since we're still in the month of Ramadan... i actuali did 2 other skin but they didnt turn out rite... so i juz had to scrap it n maybe use either one of it the next time... so if anyone having problem browsing wif dis new skin, pls let me noe... dis skin is pretty bright den all those previous one rite... but dat doesnt mean im having a great life here....

theres still dis turbulence inside my head... i dunno wats going on.... i dunno y... i dunno wats happening to me... i juz dunno... so pls let me know....

pls dont make me feel useless....

i know i didnt ask for bad things to happen...

where are you?

"Sometimes, all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart that understands."

2006-09-28T03:15:00.000+08:00

i got my hp back!!
n its ok now!
which is at dis moment... hope it wont cause any problem again...

i dunno wat to blog about actuali... juz dat im very bored even wen im having my holidays..

b4 i forgot, juz wanna say happy fasting to all Muslim...

n congratz to Hady Mirza for winning the Singapore Idol title..

dats all for now... will update again soon... meanwhile, enjoy sum songs by Ungu n Gigi specially for the month of Ramadan... :)

"Giving away a heart can hurt ... having a broken heart can be life threatening, even to the strongest people. But, receiving one is the greatest gift."

2006-09-25T00:46:00.000+08:00

I is

overreacting(v)
-Reacting with unnecessary or inappropriate force, emotional display, or violence.

but still

disappointed(adj)
-Thwarted in hope, desire, or expectation.

"Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know you can't have them, but it's worse when you thought you didn't want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you can't live without them."

2006-09-21T01:24:00.000+08:00

theres sumthin inside me... sumthin evil.. a voice dat keeps repeating.... asking me to stop having dis beautiful feeling coz it seems impossible.. but on the other hand, the heart juz wanna keep it going n its impossible for it to stop...

please dont let dis heart break again...

======================
Samsons - Kenangan Terindah
======================
Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang
Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Chorus:
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
======================

"How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?"

2006-09-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

1) Name someone with the same birthday as you.
Bill Gates?

2) When was your first date?
never been on a date... pathetic rite.. i noe...

3) Have you ever seriously vandalised someone else's property?
the school table

4) Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
nope.. except for my sis...

5) Have you ever sang infront of a large number of people?
yup.. a few times in a wedding...

6) What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
her smile

7) What do you usually order from starbucks?
i usually go Coffee Bean

8) What is your biggest mistake?
to fall for a fren... but it was nice..

9) Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
yup.. dat letter E..

10) Say something totally random about you?
i'm emo

11) Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
nope.. but sum1 said i haf the look to be a celebrity...

12) Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
yep

13) Did you have braces?
nope... but wish i had...

14) Are you comfortable with your height?
yes

15) What is the most romantic thing someone of the opposite sex has said to you?
"I can't bear to take the risk of being with you in a relationship, facing breakup and then losing you completely." n "Your care and concern towards me makes you have a special place in my heart." ok.. dats 2 actually....

16) When do you know it's love?
when i get love in return...

17) Do you speak any other languages?
malay, indon?

18) Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
there is always the sun...

19) What magazines do you read?
sentiasa Manja~

20) Have you ridden in a limo?
yes.. in a game... i even drove it..

21) Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
yup

22) Do you watch mtv?
hanya di MTV Jus~

23) What's something that really annoys you?
techno!

24) What's something you really like?
my cat

25) Do you like SITI NURHALIZA?
nope... coz shes married to Mr K... n coz i love you..

26) Can you dance?
does headbanging consider dance?

27) Do you have a handphone? what model and who bought it for you?
yep.. my being repaired Nokia 3250! my dad bought it..

28) Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance?
all the time... coz my dad is an ambulance driver.. n also the time when i dislocated my wrist in skool... my dad brought me to the hospital too.. lol

29) What do you wish for?
a perfect life

30) Anything you wanna say to your friends?
my bday is on 28 oct!!

31) Do you have a credit card? master or visa?
does Nets counts?

32) Do you have a hobby?
i collect money... i mean those old notes which are now very rare.. i like saving money too... but i'm not stingy ok.. ;)

33) Have you learned any talent recently?
does driving a car counts? i learnt how to do reverse parking! yea! :D

34) Did you received any gift recently?
yes! its dis tiger plush toy wearing a leather jacket wif a red scarf around its neck, a snow cap n a goggle... haha.. so cute... its from Esso by the way... lol

35) any last word?
i love you coz u made me feel special...

"How I wish I could be there with you, but distance has kept us apart. Apart physically, but in spirit, you are always in my heart."

2006-09-16T01:15:00.000+08:00

lets get jiwang! yea! n let kak syiqin's bulu roma ternaik!! lol!!
aniway, i wanna dedicate dis song to you...

so its *hint* holiday again!! *hint* n im pretty sure dat i'll be spending most of my time rotting at home.... maybe i can consider taking a part-time job.... hmm... still thinking bout it... n my hp was sent for repair... it got warded at Wheelock Place Hospital... n will be discharged probably on Monday... hahaha... hope it will not cause any more problem.. coz i simply love dat hp...
so dats all for now... be sure to see me complaining dat im bored thru out dis holiday!

"Heartbreak brings us immense pain and suffering but in reality we must realize that it brings us one step closer to the one we are destined to be with."

2006-09-12T00:25:00.000+08:00

i am so FUCK UP rite now!

1 gd thing happened... n dat is my exam is over.... n i'll be having 5 weeks of holiday...
but in return i get sum bad luck?
wtf!! firstly it was msn... was having difficulty logging in.. but den i found d solution to it which was to turn off my firewall... n d worst thing happened hours later.. d service was down... coz i've been told dat many ppl cant log in to their msn too...

n den d "best" thing happened... my hp is having fun... no network signal, means i cant make or receive calls n send or receive messages..... sounds like fun rite........ n to add more fun to it, it also restarts automatically...

FUCK LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im like half dead n my world is shrinking wen msn was down n my hp is still giving me problems.... dammit!!!!!!!

"Loving someone you can never have is like having blood flowing through every part of you, except your heart."

2006-09-07T00:43:00.000+08:00

helo blog... how r u? i noe u're bored... n u muz haf missed me rite.... but u still noe dat i miss her more den u miss me... i noe u do.... haiz.... but wat can i do.... i wish u can tell me how... but u're juz a damn f*cking blog! now let me update u!! argh~!!!!!!!!!!

*zul is crazy*

d families wen to Kulai over d weekend... stayed overnight on Saturday n d next day we wen for my so called cuzzin's wedding b4 heading home... it was kinda fun... Pak Ngah is always funny.... n during dat wedding, Pak Ngah n my other cuzzin requested my sis to sing.... n so me n my sis sang Dua Insan, originally by M. Nasir n Yunizar Hussein.... while singing, i kinda realise dat many ppl actuali stop doing wat they were doing, except for eating, to watch us sing... d best thing was, it wasnt a karaoke... but it was live band.... not dat kinda typical band bawah blk... but i can say dat dis band is professional... they got bout 5 books of lyrics, n they can play any song dat u choose from dat book anytime u want... n mind u, i think there was bout 300+ songs altogether... n they dun haf to read their guitar cords or musical notes to play ur choosen song.... they can remember them all... cool rite.... they can play classic songs, acoustic, rock n even new songs... Mira, my other cuzzin, sang Teman Tapi Mesra... d sound from d band was nice but i think she spoilt d song... hahaha.... n wat else does orang "Kulai-fornia" proud of if not for Mawi!! d band played 3 songs by Mawi... Kian, Lagu Jiwa Lagu Cinta n Terharu.... everything was perfecto... how i wish i had a band....

orite now.. i wanna share dis song wif everyone... especially you...
--------------------------------------------
Irwansyah & Acha Septriasa - My Heart
--------------------------------------------
Disini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia kudenganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Disini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yg lain
Mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
Sayang ku akan hilang

If u love somebody could we be this strong
I will fight to win our love will conquer all
Wouldn't risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart
--------------------------------------------

2006-08-29T16:42:00.000+08:00

i left out sumthing in my last post... how can i forget bout dis...
MY MUM WAS PUNK'D!!
yea! hahaha... it was my dad's idea... it goes like dis.. me n my dad wen to fetch my mum from work which is at Chua Chu Kang... n before reaching the carpark, my dad stopped the car along dis small road leading to the carpark... n he asked me to drive the car into the carpark making it look as though i drove the car from home... n so i happily drove the car! haha!! my mum was shocked wen she wanted to get into the car n she keep asking from where did i drove the car... even her fren saw me driving... lol!! i wanna drive sum more!!!

2006-08-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

ok.. im trying very hard to update my blog atleast once a week.... so wat do we haf here... o ok.. ITE Dover's IT department had a bowling tournament recently at Bukit Panjang Plaza... ye kak syiqin...... kitorang gi main bowling... satu hari takde lesson tau... hehehe... n guess wat!!!! my class is the CHAMPION!!! yea! yea! IT1B IS THE BOWLING CHAMPION~~~~! lol... its funny lah... d most kecohrable class won... against d 2nd year class also u noe... but not bad at all rite... n dis is wat we won...

so besides all those fun we had... theres sum things i haf to keep in mind too... n they r exam n projects... there will be only 1 exam for me dat is for CMO... n den 2 projects for MME... i got my web portfolio bout 70% done... n dat is kinda safe zone for me coz i think im doing dis quite fast... another project is to design sumthing relating to safety at work... i dun reali noe bout dat project yet... n both haf to be submitted by early September... aniway, heres a lil preview of my web portfolio... http://www27.brinkster.com/zulbth/portfolio/index.html atleast 3 pages n 1 flash animation required... so there u go... more den expected... hehe... i think im a workaholic wen it comes to doing stuffs like dis... i can start rite away n automatically n wen i start, i cant stop till its finally done... ;)

alrite.. i'll stop here... will update wen i feel like it aite... haha!

2006-08-19T02:06:00.000+08:00

alrite.. finally dis blog is updated.... dis is for u lah kak syiq... coz u're d only person i noe dat visited my blog to find out wats up wif me... i admit it lah... im too lazy to blog... n theres nothin interesting dat is happening in my life... so theres nothin to blog about... i guess... unless if i got attached to sum1 or even been out on a date den i wud be happy enuf to blog bout it...

firstly, i wanna dedicate dis song to ______...

secondly, to u guys lah... its not funny dammit.. u guys r so not humane.... n also i will understand if u all laugh wen u can do it better.. but its even funnier wen u cant do it at all... fuck u all lah... i hate discrimination....

thirdly, to celine... i am emo...

fourthly, haf u ever wonder wat it will be like if ur life is a musical? i call dis musical,
"I Tunggu You"

i'm gonna tell d one dat i love wat it will be like...
If You Were Mine (Marcos Hernandez)

and i'll also tell her dat...
I Wanna Grow Old With You (Adam Sandler)

everything i said to her is true n...
This I Promise You (NSYNC)

we'll always be loving each other n make a...
Promise (Matchbook Romance)

but pls don't leave me...
Here Without You (3 Doors Down)

and let our love...
Pupus (Dewa)

or even break my heart into...
Pieces (Sum41)

it will only be...
Kepastian Yang Ku Tunggu (Gigi)

coz i've been...
Menanti Sebuah Jawaban (Padi)

whatever it is, i will always...
Menunggumu (Peterpan & Chrisye)

isn't dat cool... but i think there will be more den 10 songs if it were to be a real musical...

2006-08-01T00:44:00.001+08:00

this poem will always be unfinished... with no ending..

i feel like giving up......

================
Yellowcard - Only One
================
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
================

2006-07-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

1 more day to skool reopen!!

isnt it "GREAT"

2006-07-19T01:37:00.000+08:00

surprise.. surprise.....
The O.C. is back!!

yea~! dats d reaction u get from sum1 whu dun haf cable tv... lol! at first i tot Channel 5 is gonna juz show d previous season again.... but no! it is Season 3!! d show started, n it was showing d previous episode from season 2... which i tot dat was d ending for season 2... n den my sis realise dat Ryan's haircut is different from wat we used to see... so i wen into Channel 5's website n our question is answered!! but how come there wasnt any advert or promo for dis season 3? hmm....

I DIDNT/CANT SLEEP AT ALL LAST NITE!

i'm still waiting... patiently....

2006-07-17T01:32:00.000+08:00

test results from PersonalDNA.com
You are a
Considerate Director.
Here are personalDNA maps that uniquely represent your personality. Mouse over any part of the box or strip to learn more about the traits that the colors represent.

You are Considerate
You trust others, care about them, and are slow to judge them, making you CONSIDERATE.
You value your close relationships very much, and are more likely to spend time in small, tightly-knit groups of friends than in large crowds.
You enjoy exploring the world through observation, quietly watching others.
Relating to others so well, and understanding their emotions, leads you to trust people in general, even though you're somewhat shy and reserved at times.
Your belief that people are generally well-intentioned contributes to your sympathy regarding their problems.
Although you may not vocalize it often, you have an awareness of how society affects individuals, and you understand complex causes of people's behavior.
You like to look at all sides of a situation before making a judgment, particularly when that situation involves important things in other people's lives.
Your close friends know you as a good listener.
You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation - friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.

If you want to be different:
Because other people would benefit immensely from your understanding and insight, you should try to be more outgoing in social situations, even when they make you uncomfortable. Others will want to hear what you have to say!

You are a Director
As a DIRECTOR, you combine an unusual openness and passion for beauty and style with confidence and a down-to-earth sensibility that allow you to realize your vision.
You are practical and pay attention to the details that others tend to miss.
By focusing on what is real and concrete, you achieve more than those who always have their heads in the clouds.
When it comes to what really matters in your life, you are confident in your ability to succeed.
Having beautiful things in your life gives you pleasure and satisfaction - you have a keen eye for style.
Even when problems present themselves, deep down you know you will overcome these challenges.
When routines get too familiar, you become bored and start looking for ways to spice things up.
You are open to new types of experiences – you are not afraid to take a risk on something new.
You have a highly developed sense of taste – you know what looks good on you, in your home, and in the world at large.
You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation - friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.

If you want to be different:
Occasionally let yourself dream a little more, even if it doesn't seem practical or efficient.

2006-07-14T02:09:00.000+08:00

holiday is soooo boring~!!!! i mean, MY holiday... theres nothing much for me to do.... everyday i will juz wake up in the AFTERNOON... coz i dun see a reason y i shud wake up early... den i will juz get myself hook on tv, d comp n food..... i think i need to restock my junk food supplies very soon... but im still not gaining weight... damn it... n everytime d holiday comes, my day becomes my night, n my night becomes my day... hmm.. get it? i mean i spend most of my time sleeping during d day n being awake thru out d nite till d next morning till arnd 3-4am... dat explains d reason y im blogging at dis time... i dun reali noe y i shud stay awake during d nite for dat long... all i did was juz watching tv, using d comp to check for dis n dat, bloghop, browsing thru friendster n myspace, play games, chat wif ppl whu r online, listen to mp3 n sumtimes radio, etc etc... n also watching dis lil ants running arnd on dis comp desk n wondering where d hell did they come from....

SYIRAH~!!! PLS PLS PLS PLS make urself free for juz one day b4 skool starts.... im like DYING to meet u... coz i reali miss u like crazy! 4 months ago, dat was wen we went for APM, is like 1 year for me.... can? we dun get to meet very often wat... unlike ur classmates... if u want i can ask Ayu to come along... i've not met her ever since we got our results... but i miss u more den her lah! u shud noe y dear... ;)
call me, sms me, msn me, do anithing to reach me lah wen u found a day dat u will be free... ok? pretty plsss..... i can let u hold on to my 3250 thru out dat day... :D

orite... im off to haf my supper...
Zidane is the new superhero!

2006-07-09T02:04:00.000+08:00

back~~ yea.. was juz too lazy to update lah.... class chalet was great... quite fun... had a great time wif my classmates... especially wen we, d guys, were crazy wif d world cup fever... n d most crazy thing we did was to play soccer at 3am in d morning~!!! dat was while waiting for d soccer match on tv to start... n den wen its half-time, we wen out to play again!! lol.... isnt dat cool.... wat ever it is, it was fun lah....

where'd you go? i miss you so...

ku harus lepaskan mu?

2006-06-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

d holiday is coming~!! yea~!!!!!!!

will be going for class chalet on 4, 5 n 6 July at Downtown East.... n d rest of d holidays will be open for me, myself n i... or unless theres any plan for outing.... or.........

LOL!!

2006-06-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

cough, fever, cold, headache, runny nose, aching body, drowsiness.....

yes~! im having all dat~! isnt dat great....... damn it....

ok.. now lets add sumthin new.... n dat is ulcer~!
well... whu cares... coz d one whu is sick is me.......
n i think i've passed d virus to my mum... shes starting to haf flu... :s

it is so clear but still they didnt realise

2006-06-25T05:00:00.000+08:00

found dis in youtube... but bare wif d low quality video... enjoy!

Menunggumu

Di Atas Normal

Semua Tentang Kita

dis song is nice coz its a diff version of it...

Yang Terdalam

Mungkin Nanti

Khayalan Tingkat Tinggi

Bintang Di Surga

2006-06-22T20:26:00.000+08:00

say it before its too late...

dats wat i did. to let u noe how i feel. hoping dat u wud feel d same way too. even though miles may lie between us, i can feel ur presence, rite here in my heart. u've captured my heart wif ur sweetness and kindness. u're one of those ppl dat i've ever known whu cud understand my thoughts n feelings. n knowing the real me. u've found d key to dis lonely heart. u r very special to me.

it wasnt easy trying to confess all my feelings towards u. but ever since i've gotten ur reply, i feel so hopeful n alive. those are d feelings dat i've been longing for. n it wasnt about d relationship dat matters most. its all about d heart. d heart which has d true meaning n answers to all feelings.

so thank u for all ur love, care n concern. i reali do appreciate it. especially wen u made me haf a special place in ur heart.

i promise dat i'll be there whenever n wherever u need me.

loving u...

2006-06-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

PETERPAN'S CONCERT WAS GREAT~!!!!
no words can describe it lah.... i still haf d energy from yesterday's concert in me... even my mum is still craving to listen to their songs... lol... n btw im still not done wif my Peterpan's music video marathon... so bare wif it!! PETERPAN ROCKZ!!

maafkan jika kau kusayangi...

2006-06-17T16:40:00.000+08:00

today it will be... mimpi yang sempurna...

2006-06-14T19:00:00.000+08:00

2006-06-14T18:27:00.000+08:00

=================
Peterpan - Tak Bisakah
=================
Hatiku bimbang
Namun tetap pikirkanmu
Selalu, selalu dalam hatiku
Ku melangkah sejauh apapun itu
Selalu, kau di dalam hatiku

Ku berjalan, berjalan
Memutar waktu
Berharap, temukan sisa hatikmu
Mengertilah, kuingin engkau begitu
Mengerti, kau didalam hatiku

[chorus]
Tak bisakah kau menungguku
Hingga nanti tetap menunggu
Tak bisakah kau menuntunku
Menemani dalam hidupku…oh oh

Dara, kau menjadi hidupku
Kemana, kau tahu isi hatiku
Tunggu, sejenak aku disitu
Jalanku, jalan menemukanmu

Oh .. oh...
[repeat chorus 2x]
=================

2006-06-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

last week was one tiring week i can say... wen to Kulai on Sunday... sent those textiles to my auntie as she will sew it into our Hari Raya clothes... n supposely my mum n sis wanted their measurement to be taken... but sumhow my auntie wasnt home... so we wen up to my uncle's house... since we haf not been to his house for so long, to our surprise, his house is getting bigger... he got it renovate n its still in process... after chilling out, we wen to do sum shopping b4 getting home...

on Wednesday, suppose to go for floorball training... but i was too lazy since my lesson ends at 6pm n dat training starts at 6pm too... n im still thinking whether i shud or shud not quit floorball... so instead of goinf for training dat day, i met up wif my sis n we wen to town... wif a reason alrite.. n dat is to collect our PETERPAN'S CONCERT tix!!!!

wen to town again on Friday.... coz my sis had to sent her hp to Nokia Care Centre at Wheelock Place... her hp, which is my 6280, had a torn LCD screen... dunno wats d cause of it... after which, we wen to Cineleisure to watch X-MEN 3!!!! it was a great show indeed... great sequel... great special effects... n very mysterious..... i think there will be X-Men 4 coming up....

Friday nite, my family n i wen to Kulai again... we intend to overnite at my uncle's house juz to spend more time wif them... n d next day we wen to my auntie's house to get my mum n sis to be measured... den we wen for shopping b4 heading back to Singapore arnd 3pm+ coz my dad had to get our car to be serviced...

CANT WAIT FOR PETERPAN'S CONCERT ON 17TH JUNE!!!

2006-05-21T17:10:00.000+08:00

don't be surprise when one day i'm gone....
gone in the darkness of night.
keeping silence from each and everyone...
when i've learnt the language of loneliness.
slipping out from the circle of contacts...
leaving without a note..
leaving without a hope.
so look back now.
find your mistake...
realise all your neglects...
that's why i'm paying you back...
before it make things any worse..
n i just don't wanna make you hurt.
all i want is just ur presence...
that used to be very sincere.
i'm wishing for that beautiful place...
that beautiful place in your heart.
maybe my questions will all be answered..
when i ask to the stars above...
in a perfect dream...
cos that's where i found all the nicest thing.
just like the stars in heaven...
shining all night...
but no one notice.
just like the stars in heaven...
i'll shine just for you...
n waiting for you to reach me.
just like the stars in heaven.......

2006-05-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

2morrow is a holiday~!! yea~!!! hahaha... coz d election polling day fell on a Saturday, so it was brought forward to 2morrow.... weee~~ so seems like dis week, i wen to skool for 3 days only... hehehe...

skool is ok... so far so gd.... dis semester's modules are Computer Management & Operating System(CMO) and Multimedia Essential(MME)... CMO is quite difficult coz i haf to noe d components in d computer, d uses, installing them, troubleshooting etc... MME is quite ok... currently learning Photoshop... luckily im quite familiar to using Photoshop, so its not so difficult for me... wait till they teaches me how to use Flash den i'll be cracking my head...

im sooo loving my Nokia 3250~!!!

easy come, easy go? do u?

2006-05-15T18:21:00.000+08:00

didnt go to skool today... down wif a flu, sore throat n a slight fever... juz took my medicine... n now im feeling drowsy...

2006-05-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!!

IBU! I LOVE U!!

2006-05-13T20:26:00.000+08:00

=============
Gigi - Perdamaian
=============
Perdamaian, Perdamaian 4x

Perdamaian, Perdamaian 4x

Banyak Yang Cinta Damai Tapi Perang Semakin Ramai 2x

Bingung Bingung Ku Memikirnya 4x

Perdamaian, Perdamaian 4x

Banyak Yang Cinta Damai Tapi Perang Semakin Ramai 2x

Wahai Kau Anak Manusia Ingin Aman Dan Sentosa

Wahai Kau Anak Manusia Ingin Aman Dan Sentosa

Tapi Kau Buat Senjata Biaya Berjuta Juta

Tapi Kau Buat Senjata Biaya Berjuta Juta

Banyak Gedung Kau Dirikan Kemudian Kau Hancurkan

Banyak Gedung Kau Dirikan Kemudian Kau Hancurkan

Bingung Bingung Ku Memikirnya 4x

Perdamaian, Perdamaian 2x

Banyak Yang Cinta Damai Tapi Perang Semakin Ramai

Bingung Bingung Ku Memikirnya 4x
=============

2006-05-07T19:25:00.000+08:00

i got myself a Nokia 3250~!!

[check out the features!]
supposely, i upgraded my hp to Nokia 6280...

[check out the features!]
dat 3250 was actruali my dad's... so i use his 3250 while he use my 6280.... theres not much diff in d 2 hp... both hp rocks lah! but my 3250 is better coz theres 512MB memory card! muahahahaha~!! n d worst part of changing to a hp is dat i haf to transfer all d data n files i had in my previous hp... n dat damn Motorola e398 cant bring forward my sms wen i insert my sim card into my new hp.... so i had to delete all d sms!! all those sweet messages... forwarded sms... birthday wishes.... all gone! damn!

2006-05-07T19:05:00.000+08:00

Does your name begin with: Z
You are very romantic but show feels that to love means to suffer. You wind up serving your mate & attracting people who have unusual trouble. You see yourself as a lover's saviour.

OCTOBER
Loves to chat
Loves those who loves him
Loves to takes things at the centre
Attractive and suave
Inner and physical beauty
Does not lie or pretend
Sympathetic
Treats friends importantly
Always making friends
Easily hurt but recovers easily
Bad tempered
Selfish
Seldom helps unless asked
Daydreamer
Very opinionated
Does not care of what others think
Emotional
Decisive
Strong clairvoyance
Loves to travel, the arts and literature
Soft-spoken, loving and caring
Romantic
Touchy and easily jealous
Concerned
Loves outdoors
Just and fair
Spendthrift and easily influenced
Easily lose confidence

Scorpio

Turn ons
Scorpio`s are full of passion and zest for life. They have tremendous drive that can involve you too. Tune in to their wavelength and you can enjoy the harmony and music in life with them. Scorpio`s are loyal and never forget a kind deed done by you. If you want to enjoy life with your Scorpio lover share their passion and intensity and you will be fascinated by how beautiful life can be with them.

Turn offs
Scorpio`s are very passionate and intense but they are also fiercely possessive and would like to possess your mind, body and soul. Do not let seeds of jealousy grow in them because then you may have to suffer agonies of jealousy and discontentment in life. Scorpio`s have explosive tempers be careful how you handle them. They never let anyone know what is going on in their mind till they strike and you may be caught unawares. Do not flirt around in the presence of your Scorpio lover.

***most of it is true.. except for some...***

2006-05-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

Are you afraid of being single?
~> not reali.. but excessive singlehood is sumtimes disturbing...

What do you do when you can't sleep?
~> watch tv, eat supper, listen to mp3/radio...

How far would you go to get something you really want?
~> depends if i reali need it...

A fact about you?
~> i dun eat my veggies...

A fact about you that you find it pathetic?
~> i've never been on a date! lol! crap!

What time is it right now?
~> 5.42pm

Do you go for personality or looks?
~> both... but d personality is much more important..

What makes you *Really* happy?
~> wen i noe dat theres ppl whu r concern bout me...

Are you a negative person?
~> not reali...

In your opinion, do you think premarital sex is wrong?
~> yup..

What do you think is the meaning of death?
~> d end of life...

What was the craziest thing you have ever done?
~> driving a car at 80km/h... without license!

Favourite Colour:
~> black, red, blue

Which Instant Messaging programs do you use?
~> msn

How many contacts do you have in your IM?
~> 98

Are you good with computers?
~> quite..

What site do you mostly go to?
~> hotmail, friendster, myspace, blogs...

How many kids do you want in the future?
~> 2.. a boy n a gal..

Do you have a job?
~> used to...

Do you want to own a car?
~> YES!

What type of car do you want?
~> an Evo 9 like dis can?

What size of shoe do you wear?
~> 7

What size of tops do you wear?
~> s/m, 36...

Have you met any celebrities?
~> yup! lots of them... at APM! haha! APE JER!

What type of music can you NOT stand?
~> techno!

What song is currently stuck in your head?
~> Dunia Batinku by Ella & Spider

Any song for an admirer?
~> Menunggumu by Chrisye & Peterpan

Any song for the person that you used to love?
~> Janji Tinggal Janji by KRU

Define LOVE:
~> love is hard to find... true love is even harder to find... so wen u've found true love, treasure it...

Favourite quote:
~> its not about loving a perfect gal... its about loving a gal perfectly...

2006-05-03T16:58:00.000+08:00

==================
Radja - Benci Bilang Cinta
==================
sudah berulang kali aku percaya
namun ternyata tak ada beda
kau anggap mudah yang dulu ku salah
hingga aku menyangka
diri ini bagaikan tak berarti di matamu

bila kau malam gelap aku bintangmu
ku terangi dirimu dengan cintaku
agar kau bisa mencintai cinta
dan menyayangi cinta
setulus kau menyayangi dirimu kekasihku

[Chorus]
jangan benci bilang cinta
jangan marah bilang sayang
jangan mendustai hati
bila engkau memang suka
jangan kau merasa jauh
bila kau dekat denganku
jangan kau menganggap cinta
mudah datang mudah pergi

[repeat 2nd verse]

[repeat chorus]
==================

2006-04-29T02:02:00.000+08:00

orientation was boring...................... we got to noe our classes... den we wen to d comp lab, d teacher talk dis n dat bout d skool n d course structure... den they bring us arnd d skool showing wheres d library, hall, labs etc... n we're done... Shahidah is not in d same class as me!! damn!!

after which, waited for Ajib to finish his skool tour n den we wen to Clementi McD n had our lunch b4 going for Friday prayer... after Friday prayer, we wen to play street soccer at d usual place... but after awhile, it rained... heavily! but we were still continue playing until d game was over...

i read d newspaper wen i got home... theres dis article bout a house n a man being struck by lightning... n i tot wat if i was being struck by lightning while playing soccer juz now... OMG! wat will happen eh? how will it be for ppl whu noe me to live life without me around animore... maybe there will be ppl whu will be sad... or maybe some will regret... hmm... i dunno...

====================
Fort Minor - Where'd You Go
====================
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
====================

2006-04-25T11:41:00.000+08:00

i dunno wats wrong wif me these few days... im sum kinda like being rebellious to my mum... made her angry... i dunno y... but of coz it wasnt on purpose... d first time, my mum was d one whu tried to comfort n cheer me up... n it happened again today... i didnt tell my mum earlier dat im gonna met up wif my sis at town... so dis time, i tried to cheer her up... i bought her an Adidas sling bag since she wants a new bag for work... n so we're fine n she is happy wif it... yes its Adidas! my mum likes sport brands like Nike, Adidas n Fila... she wears a Nike shoe, Reebok jacket n uses bags from Fila n Converse for work b4.... isnt my mum cool... even though she works as a parking attendant, a.k.a minah parking, she always wanna look gd n feel comfortable while working... but still not for showing off... she always say dis to me, atleast look gd if u're not gd looking... means if u're not gd looking, atleast manage ur look, eg. style, clothes, so dat u still haf a pleasant appearance...

even wen i let them down...
even wen i dun share my problems to them...
even if they dun always express their love...
no matter wat, i'll always love dis family of mine...

im happy having a great family... however, my mind still says dat im not happy... theres dis inner voice which says dat im LOL(lack of love)... but where can i find dat true love i need.... juz like a puzzle wif a missing piece... without dat piece, d puzzle wont be beautiful coz its not complete... so wheres dat missing piece?

How Happy Are You?
You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.
You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

Are You Happy Or Sad?

The wind may sigh as it blows through the sky, and lately...you've been sighing too. It might be a case of "the blues," but if you've experienced more "frowns" than "smiles" recently, better check it out. Talk to someone. Find support. Consult a counsellor. It's important to realize that there's plenty that can be done, regardless of how dark your life may temporarily seem. There is hope!!!

Are You Lucky In Love?
Your record, so far, is smeared by cranky luck.
But that doesn't mean that your love chart is destined to stagger forever.
Some luck is inescapable, but often temporary.
Sometimes a bad streak can alter its path through an act of consistent will.
Let's hope that your luck changes soon.

2006-04-22T20:27:00.000+08:00

dis is so so so so pathetic..... disappointed... bored... at home... slack....

changed d music video to dis one... coz Perpisahan Terasing is a sad song... so i dun wanna make ppl sad animore... especially Syirah... aniway, dis song is dedicated to u! coz u r my aura... ;)

=================
Ada Band - Kau Auraku
=================
Malam kehadiran cinta
Sambut jiwa baru
Telah lama kutunggu
Hadirmu disini
Namun hanya ruang semu
Yang nampak padaku
Meski sulit harus kudapatkan

Kerinduan yang mendalam
Terbitkan hasratku
Sambutlah tangan ini terima janjiku
Rasakan cinta yang tulus
Lewat aliran darahmu
Menyatu seiring dalam kasih

[chorus]
Kau auraku...
Oh pancarkan sepercik harapan
Datanglah merasuk men...jelma
Meleburkan cinta
Kubawa kau terbang
Menembus awan yang beriring
Kembangkan senyuman
Bagai bunga
Bawa keindahan

Tak dapat kusangkali
Adanya dirimu
Yang s'lalu menaungi
Pikiran batinku
Ingin miliki hatimu
Takkan pernah
Terlepaskan
Kupersembahkan
Semua padamu

[repeat chorus 2x]

kau auraku...
=================

2006-04-19T19:03:00.000+08:00

another day of slackin...

was suppose to go town wif Hairi... but it was cancelled coz he wen out wif his mom... weekend it is...

so ended up being home alone... even my sis wen out wen d rain stopped... but nvm.. it wasnt dat boring afterall... i got Syirah to chat wif... from talking bout serious matter to making me laugh non-stop... lol...

to Syirah: hope dat u r doing fine... be strong aite... im sure u will be ok... in dis case, let go n let God k... as i've said, maybe God haf sumthin better for u... so dun worry too much dear... watever it is, im always here for u...

"perpisahan itu sungguh menyedihkan... tapi semuanya di tangan takdir...."

2006-04-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

i am now officially an IT student of ITE Dover!! ahahahaha... wen to register n made payment dis afternoon... n i had to take dis color blindness test.. lol... its sumthin like dis one http://www.toledo-bend.com/colorblind/Ishihara.html.... but theres more of it... so skool is gonna start like soon.... damn! on 2nd May... n b4 dat on 28 April, theres orientation programme... i think im gonna join floorball for cca... hahahaha... its fun ok... n also, Shahidah is in d same course!! yea!! lol! hope dat everything is gonna be OK...

2006-04-13T18:33:00.000+08:00

yea~!! sumthin new~! lol... im accepted to study in ITE Dover for Higher Nitec in IT!!!!!!!! thank god! its such a great relieve to noe dat theres hope n i can still continue my study! even though i dun get to focus more on multimedia, lets juz hope dat IT will not be a bad one for me... atleast i got a gd start n sum experience even b4 attending skool... n even if its ITE, n not poly, its still a skool... theres an advantage going to ITE first actuali... coz i realise dat i can gain more knowledge n experience on dat course so dat i wont haf much problem on it n will be ready to go poly...

im very happy now... but not fully happy yet! *stare at syirah*
hahahaahahaa...

so i juz realise dat 2morrow is Friday... n yea.. its Good Friday... a HOLIDAY! *hint* *hint* lol... but aniway, if my parents aren't working 2morrow, i think we will be going up north to Kulai! to send those cloth to be sew into our Hari Raya clothes... haha... so my baju kurung for dis year will be grey n green... while last year's which r blue n contrast of green + maroon, r still wearable... eh y did i choose for green again dis year!? alamak.. haha... nvm lah... its 2 diff green... hmm... but if my dad will be working 2morrow, den maybe i will juz be rotting at home... *bang head on d table*

aniway.. i was bored n so i took some of dis test...

The Your Type of Girl Test
The Favorite Friend
62% Sexy-Cute, 72% Dark-Light, 52% Artsy-StylishCute, Light, and neither Artsy nor Stylish, she's that friend we've all had. The great girl. The one we've been friends with since the third grade. The one who laughs at our jokes and sends funny text messages.

The Relationship Comittment Test
Comitted Lover
You scored 85% Comittment!Like the "lover" below you, you have many attractive qualities and the opposite sex is likely very eager to be with you. Not only are you open and honest but you are also tolerant and patient. You likely have all the pre-requisites of a healthy long-term relationship! Don't fret if you run through a few unsuccessful relationships, some people won't realize what a great person you are and only want a good time! Take things slow and your true love will appear eventually!

The How Trustworthy Are You Test
"Trusty Samurai"
You scored and 84% in Trustworthiness!You are a very good person who in general believes in the good of others before your own. You'll always have the back of your friends even in extreme situations. You are an honorable person who will stay trustworthy through thick and thin. You are seldom selfish, but are caring enough to compensate for that. You remind people of a Trusty Samurai...following the honor code and staying true to your word...Good Day...Trusty Samurai!

The How much can you love Test
Devoted
You have 18 love points!You believe in love and believe that love like any other human feeling needs sacrifices and you are ready to make them. Well good for you and that makes you admirable. Keep it up and you will get that happy ending we all want. ;)

tak guna ada mata,
kalau tak pandai melihat...
tak guna ada telinga,
kalau tak pandai mendengar...
tak guna ada hati,
kalau tak pandai menilai....

im very IRRITATED by YOU! yes! even though u're not irritating me directly, but i noe how dat first person feels like n i AM very very irritated.... u said to her dat u understand her feelings... but it seems like u dun... n dun u noe wat it means wen she seldom reply u? atleast Endang noe wat it means wen i ignore her... u're such a dumb ass... can i juz smack u reali hard on d head so dat u noe wats going on here? or izzit dat u wan me to juz shoot u in d head?

2006-04-12T02:23:00.000+08:00

alrite... so wats new? hah... nothin new YET... everything is d same... aniway, i've applied for higher nitec in IT which is at ITE Dover... as from wat dat ITE teacher advice me... n i've got no idea wen will d result be out... will it be arnd end of May or earlier... coz my dad wen to talk to dat teacher again regarding my NS defferment which i haf to submit by 29 April, n he said dat he is very sure dat im gonna get to study IT... hope so... if its still not successful den he will ask d MP to write a letter to ITE...

so currently my life is back to dat slacking routine since im not working animore... wake up... bath... eat... use d comp... listen to music/radio... bath... eat... watch tv... use d comp again... sleep.... haiz..... sumtimes i feel like going for a jog... i wanna play street soccer! i wanna go jamming! i wanna meet u!! im juz waiting for dat sumone to declare herself to be free on a certain day... den i'll be very alive... hehehe... date me out plssss~ lol! *smack on d head*

ok.. while im typing dis... im actuali watching The OC.. yea.. dat repeat season 2 on channel 5 at 2am... i kinda feel like im Seth.. he keeps on sighing wen Summer didnt understand wat his heart is trying to say and how nice he is to Summer even wen she is seeing sumone else... he is juz like The OC version of me... except dat he is way more cooler den me lah... orite... dats crap... *sigh~*

here goes d lyric for dis song... quite meaningful though.... perfect for all those sighing... lol... *sigh~*

=======================
Padi - Menanti Sebuah Jawaban
=======================
Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku tak terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

[chorus]
Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yg terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

[repeat chorus 3x]

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
=======================

2006-04-04T11:37:00.000+08:00

first of all, i juz wanna make a shout out...(again)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR SYIRAH!!
May everything about ur day be special, coz dats wat U r... ;)
n btw, sori dat i haf to break my promise... :s

orite now... i met my MP last nite regarding my application for ITE which was being withdrawn... since he noe my family well, especially my dad, so we tried to get help from him... besides Mr Arthur Fong, theres dis man whu do all those interviewing during dat meet-the-people session, gave me a lecture since he taught in ITE b4... urgh~ he suggested me to try registering for Higher Nitec in IT or Digital Media Design... but i tot Digital Media Design is Nitec... hmm....

n its still confusing lah... coz d last time i met another ITE teacher whu is my dad's fren also, he told me to choose d course dat im very interested in... but now after meeting dis recent ITE teacher, he suggested me to choose IT coz its d so called "mother" of programming, designs n all those stuffs dat got to do wif computers... n den i feel like he is looking down on me coz i applied for Multimedia Technology n not IT in Higher Nitec... its like he tot dat i chose Multimedia Technology coz its easy... n den he said bout playing games everyday, every year, Warcraft 1, 2, 3... bla bla bla... dun juz simply play games... u got to learn to hack them n den u will noe wats going on around d game.... haiz....... jgn asal bole tembak lah.... i dun play Warcraft... n yes, i hack games b4... from adding custom objects in The Sims to changing bout 90% of all the vehicles in Grand Theft Auto... n wen my sis said i use d computer almost everyday, its not dat i use it juz for entertainment... i got a blog, a website wif an online portfolio, an original shortfilm, i do video editing, some graphic designs.... hmm... wat else... n i did dat all on my own wif d knowledge n skill i've learnt by myself.... he shud be suprised if he had ask whether i did those stuffs b4....

he also ask me to think of my next 5 years plan... wat do i wanna be n do in d next 5 years... so wen i noe wat i wanna be, i haf to plan my route to achieve wat i wanna be... den theres dis funny thing, but quite logical, dat i've learnt from Mr Arthur Fong... he said life is like having lots of galfrens n choosing d rite one to be ur wife... lol... wat he meant is dat in life, theres lots of oppurtunities to choose from n i haf to make d rite decision to choose wat i want so dat i wont regret having it...

so im now in d confused state... follow d advice from d earlier ITE teacher or d recent one.... shud i choose Multimedia Technology/Digital Media Design or IT.... my interest or for better benefit.... haiz..............

aniway, i've stop working for gd... i juz wanna use d time i haf to settle my skoolin problems... so it was my last day at work juz now since we're done wif dat troublesome Project Pixel.... actuali it wasnt dat difficult working in a market research company... but d only thing dat makes us stress n go crazy is d large amount of workload... so gdbye Acorn~ lol...

2006-03-31T03:34:00.000+08:00

wat d fuck is wrong wif me????????????

i wish i had wings... so dat i can fly away from all dis problem....

mimpi yang sempurna.....

2006-03-30T03:48:00.000+08:00

im currently feeling very down.......... useless n hopeless................................................. i cant seem to get luck, find hope n see wats gonna happen next......... my future seems to fade away too...... i reali cant think of wat im suppose to do now....... haiz...........................................................
...............................................................
................................................................
........... i reali feel like crying thinking of my situation rite now..............

dan hilang.............................................

2006-03-28T17:46:00.000+08:00

Gadis Melayu by Mawi n Taufik Batisah!! yea~! dis is one of my fav performance in APM 2006... enjoy aja! hahhaha... orite.. to go along wif dis song, im putting up my own 10 most fav Gadis Melayu... coz u noe, siapa kata gadis melayu tak menawan? hahaha... so here it goes... btw its not in ranking order aite... coz i admire them all! lol

10 Most Fav Gadis Melayu

to start off, d hottest n d famous...

Siti Nurhaliza!

d rock chix...

Elyana!

d original Marsha from d drama Dia...

erm.. i dunno wats her real name... so, Marsha!!

d young actress whu acted as Via in Cinta Internet...

Dhea Ananda!!

d cute host of APM 2006!!

Nirina Zubir!!

d not so famous local artist...

Elfeeza!

Suria's newscaster n reporter...

Hazlina!

orite now, here r sum ppl dat i noe...

d one whu i only met twice... haha...

Kak Syiqin!

d one whu likes art alot... shes an actress?? haha.. yea.. she acted in Teman Anugerahku as Syanaz...

Nadiah!

n not forgetting, my Ms Brightside!!

Syirah!!

there u go... 10 beautiful Gadis Melayu... from M'sia, Indon n S'pore... hahaha... like APM... so dats all for now... semoga kita berjumpa lagi di APM 2007...whahahaha~

2006-03-25T16:35:00.000+08:00

APM2006 was great! even though Peterpan didnt perform... only Ariel n Andika came... but atleast they won 2 awards! yea! *clap hands* had a great time screaming n supporting for our favorite artist... btw dat indon host is quite cute eh... lol... my mum n auntie crazy supporting Mawi... while my sis n i crazy supporting Peterpan... hahaha... d performance r all great... especially wen Mawi n Taufik Batisah sang Gadis Melayu... lol... however, my mum n auntie was quite disappointed coz Mawi n M.Nasir didnt perform d song Lagu Jiwa Lagu Cinta... atleast they performed, unlike Peterpan... but still, it was soooo fun lah... yg bisa, enjoy aja! hahahaha....

SYIRAHHHHHHHH, y were u being interviewed ar? wat was it all about?

cant wait to watch d repeat telecast! hahaha...

Peterpan is on d coverpage of Manja!! lol!

2006-03-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

APM2006 IS TOMORROW!!

im such a sick kid these few days... had a pain in my chest... den came d 3 days never ending stomach ache... n now i haf ulcers in my mouth... :S

2006-03-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

"Life is prison when you're in love alone."

2006-03-18T14:14:00.000+08:00

What Kind of Rocker Are You?
You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.
That doesn't mean you don't rock out...
You just rock out with meaning.
For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.

What Gruesome Death Are You? (contains yummy pics!)

Artistic Suicide
Yeah, yeah, you're depressed. You're lonely. No one gets you. That's why you'll take a couple of razor blades and slice open your wrists. Who says suicide isn't gruesome? I'm sure that if you really put your mind to it, you'll be able to turn all of your pain into a work of morbid art that will take the forensics teams a long, long time to clean up. Unfortunately, right before you die, you're going to realize that you really DID want to live after all. Ain't life a bitch?

I TOLD U IM EMO!!!

2006-03-18T14:10:00.000+08:00

BUSY! work... work... work....
i feel like i've lost all my social contact wif my frens...

argh!! fuck dis stomach ache!!

6 MORE DAYS TO APM2006!!yea!!

2006-03-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

i met some childish morons yesterday... was walking arnd at Geylang wif my family n we passed by dis handphone shop which was "proudly" run by 2 chinese guys(if im not wrong) n 1 indian guy... d indian guy was "sweeping" d floor infront of their shop while d others r inside... wat happened was dat we passed by their shop, i was walking behind, n dat indian guy put some staplers on my head... after he "successfully" did dat, he n his frens laugh... n so their laughter is sum kind of suspicious to me coz b4 they laugh, i felt sumthin on my head but i didnt check wat it was until i was off their sight... they think im stupid? they think im not sensitive? even my hair haf great sensitivity... so i told my family wat happened n guess wat... we made our revenge... we hold on to sum litters n drop them inside n infront of their shop.. so indian guy, its a waste of time n effort of u trying to sweep d floor... i wasnt reali satisfied after wat we did actuali... i shud haf put d staplers on dat indian guy's head or given d staplers back to him n say "i think dis is urs".... they will be shock to noe dat im "psychic".... lol... but its sad to think bout their attitude lah... i think they didnt managed to go to skool coz skool is d first place where we had fun doing those kind of stuff... so sad lah... lol...

im still not feeling ok... i often got headache... my breathing is still not stable...

thinking bout accepting d offer to go ITE, its not dat bad actuali... i can get more experience in dat course b4 going to poly... n i can also build up more on my portfolio... its juz dat i haf to sacrifice 2 years in ITE... a lil more effort... an extra mile in my journey...

2006-03-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

"failure is a motivation and not something you should feel despair about"

my application for poly wasnt a success... haiz...................................

im still having dis pain in my chest... since yesterday afternoon... i dun reali noe wats d cause... i had it b4 2 years ago... but dis time its much more painful... suffocating for air... my heart beats faster... as if like i had a crazy long run... i talk like d nigger kid from Malcolm In The Middle... stopping after every word i said juz to breath... den i started to sweat... my legs turn weak like jelly... my vision was blur... my head gets heavier... i noe was going to faint... so i tried very hard to stay awake... luckily i was wif my sis... so i took a rest for a while n den wen home... today i feel much better... d pain is reducing now...

2006-03-02T01:20:00.000+08:00

"Loving someone you can never have is like having blood flowing through every part of you, except your heart."

2006-02-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

i nearly got myself into big trouble dis evening! i wanted to cross a road... i mean jaywalking... n d very first car dat passed me was a police car!!

"There is no medication for this illness, no known cure other than time. Maybe someday I'll get back my heart; maybe someday I'll get back my pride."

2006-02-28T03:42:00.000+08:00

"They say there's more pleasure in loving than being loved ... but do they know how painful it is if it's unrequited?"

2006-02-27T04:08:00.000+08:00

"The sun is shining, but there's no light for me. The moon is high in the sky, but I still can't sleep. I know you are somewhere, smiling, just like the sun shining, but not for me."

2006-02-26T04:05:00.000+08:00

"It's a long road when you face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love if you search within your soul, and the emptiness you felt will disappear."

how i wish u were mine... i'll take all those sorrows away... i'll walk wif u along the empty street... i'll gif u tender love n care... juz to make u feel lively again...

2006-02-26T03:09:00.000+08:00

i wanna dedicate dis song to "sum1"... hahaha...
in ur dreams lah zul....

but reali.. i do sumtimes wonder how great it is to haf a gf... a suitable one of coz... there will be sum1 dat i can share my feelings wif... all my ups n downs... shower her wif all my love... den i wonder wen will i see the end to my single life... n i wonder y am i still single till now... heh.. actuali im tired of being single alreadi... hmm.. let me see... 4 years+? n i actuali hate dat year b4 dat 4 years of "singleness" happen... coz i dun even feel like i haf a gf.. so i wud say, since d day i was born... shud haf celebrate as an anniversary for being single instead... hah...

n den wen i reali fell in love wif sum1, i was rejected... but i dun understand as she was crazily in love wif me too... hah.. dat reali sucks... i wonder... i noe i may lose to my looks... but i noe my heart dun... coz i've been hearing lots of other couple's problem n i learn from them... so i put myself in their shoes, n understand their feelings... den i noe dat i shud not let dat happen to my relationship... n also, im actuali a type of person wen i love sum1, i will be sincere n love her forever... but not till she make a big(i mean reali reali big, or it happened a few times b4) mistake...

den came about dis phrase from kak syiqin which says "god, if u cant make me thin, atleast make my frens fat".... den i wonder again... yes! make me fat! den atleast i will understand y im single for so long... hah.. but still even if im not fat, i lose to sum of them... coz i do noe sum ppl whu r well endowed (lets be nice n not use d word fat to describe them) n they r attached... erm.. oh shit! so does dat makes me a loser?

hah... so long for all those wondering... lol... (lack of love)

di dalam jaga, ku tercari-cari...
di dalam tidur, termimpi-mimpi...
siapakah gadis misteri...
adakah dapat ku kenali...

urs sincerely,
this lonely heart...

=========================
Peterpan - Khayalan Tingkat Tinggi
=========================
Awal ku melihat
Kuyakin ini bukanlah yang biasa
Mengagumkan
Melemahkan aku melihat tatap matanya

Garis tawanya
Waktu berhenti apabila ku memandangnya
Mengagumkan
Melemahkan aku melihat tatap matanya

*
Khayalan ini setinggi-tingginya
Seindah-indahnya
Tepat ku memikirkannya
Bila ku dapat ku simpan wajahnya
Memegang indahnya
Berpura memilikinya

Yang kunanti
saat memegang tangannya
Sampai nanti
tetap memegang tangannya

(repeat *)
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2006-02-24T19:58:00.000+08:00

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its back! alive n kickin!! lol... updated wif more pictures... look out for my designs portfolio in About n my videos portfolio in Production... check em out!

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how i wish today is 24 March... coz i cant wait to go APM!!! lol!

2006-02-15T16:44:00.000+08:00

my results are bad... shudnt talk bout it... i applied for poly thru JPSAE... its a new system which is base on talents rather than purely on o lvl results... so now starts another period of waiting... waiting for another result... i've sent my application for poly n ite... n they are:

.poly
1st - Digital Media @ SP
2nd - Moving Images @ TP
3rd - Digital Media Design @ NYP

.ite
1st - Multimedia Technology
2nd - Digital Media Design
3rd - Digital Animation
4th - Product Design

yes.. i noe i didnt take Film, Sound and Video @ NP... coz Ms Hidaya advice me not to take... she said it will be a waste if i choose it coz its a popular course... so gdbye FSV.... :(

2006-02-08T01:16:00.000+08:00

oh fuck! o lvl results will be out dis friday!! how will my results be.. argh! im damn scared seh...

i wen down to Mediacorp Radio 70 Hours Gag yesterday n today.. even though d djs cant talk, we still can interact wif them... actuali my mum was d one whu is sooo excited to meet n support Sempoi... lol...

dis is Rod from Class 95...

dis is Azmi Sempoi from Ria...

Sempoi wif Brother Bo...

2006-02-01T18:40:00.000+08:00

i did illegal driving... for real... yes! i drove a car! i CAN drive! lol... my dad taught me how to drive... we wen to sum secluded area n drive around... i can now make turns, u-turn n stopping without a problem... d fastest speed i've drove on a straight road is around 80km/h... muahaha... at first i had a problem starting d car coz its a manual transmission car... unlike auto car which haf no clutch n its much easier to drive.. so after sum trial n error, i finally got d "trick" of getting d car to start moving... but my sis still have dat problem... sumtimes d car jerk wen she start d car... while i can get it to move smoothly alreadi... it was sooo fun to drive... looking forward to d next driving session... lol... coz i still haven't learn how to do reversing n parking... can't wait to get my license...

2006-01-24T21:32:00.000+08:00

My World Is Black

the Motorola E398 which keeps me connected...

my fav tops...

i wear this on my sleeve...

my self designed bag...

the wristband that i made...

my new Vans shoe...

my Converse shoe...

my Quiksilver slippers...

the family's Hyundai Getz...

2006-01-23T01:33:00.000+08:00

Seven qualities I want in a potential boyfriend/girlfriend
- faithful
- loving
- understanding
- caring
- romantic
- supportive
- sweet

Seven things that scare me:
- death
- accident
- sickness
- wen sumthing is not working
- results
- tsunami! (i dreamt of it recently! scary!!)
- losing my love ones..

Seven random songs at the moment:
- Ada Band - Kau Auraku
- Ratu - Teman Tapi Mesra
- Radja - Takkan Melupakanmu
- Mawi & M Nasir - Lagu Jiwa Lagu Cinta
- Dewa - Pupus
- Jinbara - Kasihnya Laila
- Hattan - Dari Kekasih Kepada Kekasih

Seven things I like the most:
- Atticus Clothing
- Made Clothing
- FSAS Clothing
- jackets
- music
- arts
- videos

Seven important things in my bedroom: -
- the bed
- the wardrobe
- my piggybank i call my atm
- videocam
- my personal stuffs
- my art tools (still using them even though im not an art student)

Seven random facts about me:
- i can breakdance (a lil)
- i dun eat my veggy... only certain types...
- i like to play games
- listens to emo/screamo/alternative punk rock
- i haf a cat named Fatimah (oh Fatimah~ gadis ayu~ lol!!)
- love cars
- still Lack Of Love.. (LOL?)

Seven things I plan to do before I die:
- own a car
- get to noe my potential girlfriend to be..
- get married
- haf a wonderful family
- spend a great time wif my frens
- tell my girlfriend/wife how much i love her..
- be successful in life

Seven things I can do:
- play the bass guitar
- sing
- draw
- do arts
- making blogs
- play soccer
- sleep late n waking up early wif d help of an alarm clock.. lol

Seven things I say the most:
- dah...
- belom...
- ok...
- oi!
- kpo lah..
- yea!
- alamak...

Seven celebrity crushes:
- Jayla (America's Next Top Model)
- Marsha (Dia)
- Emma Watson (Hermione Granger in Harry Potter)
- Jessica Alba
- Mary Kate Olsen
- Akma (Akademi Fantasia 3)
- Alwiyah Mohd Siz (Berita.. lol..)

Seven people I want to do this too:
- Has
- Syirah
- Kak Syiqin
- Shikin
- Ayu
- Mark
- ________

2006-01-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

taking the bus or train n using ezlink is sooo troubling me rite now... im now being charged for adult fare... not student ani more.. n its sooo expensive to travel in dis condition... lol... i top up $10 on Monday... wen to work for 3 days... den on Wednesday, i ended up having only $2+ in my ezlink... like f**k!

2006-01-20T01:10:00.000+08:00

MBR sure look cool even when they dress smart and play rock...

2006-01-11T19:52:00.000+08:00

i haf a feeling dat my dad is a racer... lol... he wen 120 in d expressway... n also i think 100+ (cant see coz his hand was blocking) at d slope behind Jurong East library... can reali feel d g-force wen we wen down d slope... haha... now he got a new bling bling on his wheels...hehe... cool... im loving dat car...

I REALI WAN A DRIVING LICENSE, LIKE NOW!!

2006-01-11T19:47:00.000+08:00

==========================
Peterpan - Ku Katakan Dengan Indah
==========================
Ku katakan indah dengan terbuka hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka menghampirinya
Kau beri rasa yang berbeda mungkin ku salah...
Mengartikannya yang ku rasa cinta

(*)
Tetapi hatiku selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu, selalu meninggikanmu

Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku, kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu

Kembali ke: (*)

Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang t'lah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri

Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang t'lah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri

Kembali ke: (*)

Kau hancurkan hatiku tak tertahan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu

Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku, kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu

Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu
Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu
Oooo...ooo...ooo...ooo...melihatmu
==========================

2006-01-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

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Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without The 'E'
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Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother Angel
I know exactly what goes on

When everything you'll get is
everything that you've wanted, princess
(well which would you prefer)
My finger on the trigger, or
(me face down, down across your floor)
Me face down, down across your floor
(me face down, down across your floor)
Well just so long as this thing's loaded

And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
let's go...

Don't bother trying to explain Angel
I know exactly what goes on when you're on and
How about I'm outside of your window
(how about I'm outside of your window)
Watchin him keep the details covered
You're such a sucker (you're such a sucker)
for a sweet talker, yeah

And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
(the only thing that I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back)
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I wil never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know...

Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?

And all of this was all your fault
And all of this

(I stay jealous)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life!
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2006-01-04T17:51:00.000+08:00

ok.. dis is belated.. happy new year!! lol... was even late for countdown... coz i dunno y it seems dat ppl cant decide properly on dat day... my sis n i wen to Esplanade.. as soon as we got out of d underpass from City Hall mrt, d fireworks r alreadi blasting... so we stop for a while to watch d fireworks n wen it ended we head to Esplanade... it was quite a boring celebration lah at Esplanade.. there was only 1 band performing n dat is Vertical Rush... atleast d band was good lah.. so after dat we walked all d way to bugis n den my mum n dad came to fetch us... but instead of going home, we wen to Mcdonalds at Kallang... had our "supper" n den wen home around 3am+...

i found a job!! or shud i say d job found me? haha.. confusing? my cuzzin actuali asked me to work at her place.. n guess wat.. im working in a market research company... am i joking here? of coz not.. haha.. im working as a Tracker.. not hacker u noe.. lol.. d pay is $7 per hour.. 5 days of work.. but im only call for work if theres sumthin for me to do... i actuali wen for my first day of work yesterday... my job is to juz key in data of d surveys they haf done into d comp.. it was quite an easy job lah.. except dat d paperwork is ALOT!! n yesterday i work from 12pm till 10pm.. hah.. got to work overtime on my first day... but atleast i got it all done... i work sum more man.. coz i wanna earn sum more money!! haha...

aniway.. i wonder who is reading my blog...

2005-12-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

orite.. im back from no where... yea.. dats d reason y i dun blog.. lol... how i wish i can go for a holiday... haiz... my aunties r probably now at kl... but at d first place how come they didnt ask me to come along... haiyah....

so quite a few things happened since d last time i update...
my cat was sick.. at first she was being sooo quiet.. she didnt walk much n she didnt even run like usual... n den suddenly we saw dat she was limping.. brought her to d vet n we got to noe dat she was having a high fever... n bout her leg is dat she is probably being attack by sum kind of a virus which attack d muscles at d joints... so rite after she was jab n took d pil, she can alreadi walk... :) n while she was sick, her weight was 1.33kg... now
she is 1.63kg.. lol...

last week wen to help out Strada Danzar, dat dance group from my skool, to design their costume for their competition d NEXT DAY... so wat i did was juz spray d word 'strada' vertically on d right side of their shirt... i had to cut out a stencil properly... it was soooo tiring.. done everything arnd 11pm+... my neck was alreadi pain by dat time...

after dat wen to Ming's house for bbq n sleep over... had sum food, played soccer, play wif firecrackers n make rockets n played tahiti through out d night till d next morning wif Khai n Victor.. haha.. it was fun...

d next day wen to Tampines to gif Strada Danzar a support... haf to met up at Lakeside b4 11.30am... n i juz had bout 1 hour of sleep... or maybe less den dat... got home from Ming's house around 9am+... had a bath straight away... change clothes, ate sum food n im out of d house again...
it was sooooooooooooooooooo hot at Tampines... n im soooooooooooooooooooooooo sleepy... yawning d whole day.... Strada Danzar didnt won aniway.. juz consolation prize.. i got home n my nose was burn~ lol..

yes!!!! d car is here!!!! i mean my dad got d car alreadi!!!! yeah!!! black Hyundai Getz, welcome to d family... hahahaha... at last.. it was reali a long wait til we can get our hands on dat car.. but i still cant drive it though.. how i wish i cud haf my driving license rite now... maybe my dad can teach me how to drive now, since we got a car.. hehehe...

so now, wat happen wen u get sum1 like me whu loves cars, photoshopping n customising... dis is wat u get...
from dis,

to dis,

n from dis new version of Impreza,

to dis,

yes! i did it again! lol..

2006 coming soon.............................

2005-12-21T16:46:00.000+08:00

did sumthin reali funny last nite... lol... very very funny.... its sumthin new called Play The Emo Song!! created by me n kak syiqin... hahahaha... it will actuali make u feel fun n at d same time evil too... muahaha.. d point is to actuali make d victim realise their mistake n understand how u're feeling thru a song... i mean EMO SONG!!

lol. cool rite...

to my first victim... dear, d song is called When I'm With You by Simple Plan... u wanna read d lyric? go find it URSELF k... or u can get help from ur dear BF... *blueak~* now fuck off! wahahhaaha...

2005-12-18T04:47:00.000+08:00

======================
Muse - Butterflies & Hurricanes
======================
Change,
Everything you are
And everything you were
Your number has been called
Fights and battles have begun
Revenge will surely come
Your hard times are ahead

Best,
You've got to be the best
You've got to change the world
And use this chance to be heard
Your time is now

Change,
Everything you are
And everything you were
Your number has been called
Fights and battles have begun
Revenge will surely come
Your hard times are ahead

Best,
You've got to be the best
You've got to change the world
And use this chance to be heard
Your time is now

Don't,
Let yourself down
And don't let yourself go
Your last chance has arrived

Best,
You've got to be the best
You've got to change the world
And use this chance to be heard
Your time is now
======================

2005-12-17T03:46:00.000+08:00

check dis out!
http://zulbth.vidilife.com
dis is kinda like my video portfolio... currently there r 6 videos to view on dis site... enjoy! n leave a comment pls... ;)

2005-12-17T02:11:00.000+08:00

orite.. im forcing myself to update rite now.. i juz feel so lazy to blog actuali... but it seems like my blog is dead wen i dun update...

so life is sooo bored now... i still havent get a job... still a full time slacker at home... n i miss skool... except for d studies...

wen out on Monday wif Mark to town... i was like a walking zombie coz i didnt get enuff sleep... d main point was to go job hunting... but in d end, we saw Hairi, Jaz n Shawn... so we join them doing their shopping...

Tuesday, wen out again.. for Movie Club farewell party n completion of d junior's sva videos... ate at Seoul Garden... n once again im a walking zombie... i've been sleeping very late since d O Level ended... d lunch treat was ok... atleast my table wasnt dat boring... so after d lunch, met up wif Hafiz n Opai... wen to town again... played pool at Lucky Plaza... accompanied sum of those rich guys shopping... since they got their pay... i was a lil dizzy by then... n i felt like fainting... probably coz i didnt get enuff sleep... so i juz haf to keep my eyes wide open... if not i wud haf fall flat to d floor.. den played pool again at Lucky Plaza again till around 11pm... got home at 12 midnite... it was quite a day full of fun...

Wednesday n Thursday, spent my day sleeping as much as i wan... was too tired to go out... did my daily routine... watch tv, use pc, eat, sleep...

Friday, wen to skool to get my portfolio... it was only me, Hairi n Mark... we joke wif Mr Bryan like usual.. n he showed us dis year's SVA submission... wen home after dat n did my daily routine again...

haiz........................

.im walking away

2005-12-10T02:15:00.000+08:00

FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT THE HELL DO U WAN FROM ME NOW?????

U COME N U GO!! U TAKE N U THROW!! OVER N OVER AGAIN!!!

WAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!

2005-12-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

watch tv... use pc... play games... eat... sleep...
dats wat i do everyday... im like a houseson... haha.. its soooooooooooo boring.... theres nothin fun to do... except for playing games... no1 is asking me out... there is nowhere to go... except for going to d shops nearby to get sum stuffs... i wanna get myself busy... i wanna work... but cant find one... i need money~ i dun wanna be using my hari raya collections... surely i will go bankrupt soon... haiz.... wat a pathetic life after exams.... lol...

i've been receiving quite a few mails from sum poly... ngee ann, sp, temasek n nanyang... my mum said does dis means dat i haf a chance to go poly... haha... hope so... all d 4 polys r on my top list.. ngee ann wud be d first... dat is for film n media studies... den sp.. for media technology... but i need my portfolio.... where is my portfolio~!? its in skool~!!

haiz.................................

2005-12-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

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Blink 182 - Dammit
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It's all right to tell me
What you think about me
I won't try to argue
Or hold it against you
I know that you're leaving
You must have your reasons
The season is calling
And your pictures
Are falling down

The steps that I retrace
The sad look on your face
The timing and structure
Did you hear he f***ed her?
A day late
A buck short
I'm writing the report
On losing and failing
When I move
I'm flailing now

And it happened once again
I'll turn to a friend
Someone who understands
Sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone
And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up

Well I guess this is growing up

And maybe I'll see you
At a movie sneak preview
You'll show up and walk by
On the arm of that guy
And I'll smile and you'll wave
We'll pretend it's okay
The charade it won't last
When he's gone
I won't come back

And it happen once again
You'll turn to a friend
Someone who understands
And sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone
And you've been there for too long
To face this on your own
Well I guess this is growing up

Well, I guess this is growing up (x4)

Well, I guess this is growing up
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2005-12-03T04:53:00.000+08:00

after such a long time since i've been using dat Linkin Park's style of skin, its time to change to a new one... so wat do u think? tell me if u r having problem browsing... it took me bout 4 hours+ to complete everything... but i still dun think dat dis is 100% complete... so gif me ur comment aite...

celx, tell me its cool... lol...

2005-12-01T17:13:00.000+08:00

wen jamming at Ming's house yesterday... its been quite a long time since we touch those equipments... d last time was dat teachers day performance i think...

i wanna work~

all i did everyday was juz slack around at home watching tv n playing games...

NEED FOR SPEED MOST WANTED ROCKZ!!!

i dreamt of you... have u ever dream of me?

2005-11-24T16:13:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a day full of glam... suits n dresses everywhere... flashes here n there... everyone was like a star... haha... here r sum pics... dun mind d date.. its not my cam anyway.. ;)

Afiq, me n Said.. b4 entering d ballroom...

me, Khai n Afiq... at our table while waiting for d rest...

d ppl at table 14... Khai not in pic...

d food... dis is d 1st course...

me, Said n Feroz... among d malay guys from 4n3 who survived... lol..

we are My Problem~

we are d Brightsides~ haha..

sweety Nadiah n me...

me n dazzling Kaini...

gorgeous Ayu n me...

we are 5n2!

more pictures here http://zulbth.multiply.com

n credits to Celine for her digicam... ;)

2005-11-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

EXAMS
ARE
OVER!!

2005-11-17T18:20:00.000+08:00

==========
Dewa - Pupus
==========
Aku tak mengerti
apa yang sedang kurasa
Rindu yang tak pernah
begitu hebatnya
Aku mencintaimu
lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak akan pernah tahu

Aku persembahkan hidupku untukmu
Telah kurelakan hatiku padamu
Namun kau masih bisu
diam seribu bahasa
Dan hati kecilku bicara

[chorus]
Baru kusadari
cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan
Kau buat remuk
seluruh hatiku

Semoga waktu
akan mengilhami
sisi hatimu yang beku
Semoga akan
datang keajaiban
hingga akhirnya
kaupun mau
Aku mencintaimu
lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak akan pernah tahu

[repeat chorus]
==========

2005-11-15T01:11:00.000+08:00

i dun need long nails...
i dun need a penknife....
i dun need a razor blade...
to slash my hand juz to feel d pain...
i will juz need my kitten n she will scratch n bite...
she can even make me bleed...
isn't it great...
so convenient...

i think im going crazy...
EMO

who am i to u actually??
i dun understand all dis....
u said u dun wan us to be separated again...
but u're not spending enuf time wif me...
i dun reali feel d bond between us...
its like u got me in ur arms but him in ur mind...
come on..
tell me d truth...
r u being sincere??
wat r ur feelings towards me??
who am i to u??

8.11.05... i will always remember dat day... coz on dat very day, it was d first time u hugged me n u let me hold ur hands....

but.. r u my number 1?

i wonder wen will i stop being emo......