Saturday, April 29, 2006
orientation was boring...................... we got to noe our classes... den we wen to d comp lab, d teacher talk dis n dat bout d skool n d course structure... den they bring us arnd d skool showing wheres d library, hall, labs etc... n we're done... Shahidah is not in d same class as me!! damn!!
after which, waited for Ajib to finish his skool tour n den we wen to Clementi McD n had our lunch b4 going for Friday prayer... after Friday prayer, we wen to play street soccer at d usual place... but after awhile, it rained... heavily! but we were still continue playing until d game was over...
i read d newspaper wen i got home... theres dis article bout a house n a man being struck by lightning... n i tot wat if i was being struck by lightning while playing soccer juz now... OMG! wat will happen eh? how will it be for ppl whu noe me to live life without me around animore... maybe there will be ppl whu will be sad... or maybe some will regret... hmm... i dunno...
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Fort Minor - Where'd You Go
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Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
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zul, posted @ 2:02 AM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
i dunno wats wrong wif me these few days... im sum kinda like being rebellious to my mum... made her angry... i dunno y... but of coz it wasnt on purpose... d first time, my mum was d one whu tried to comfort n cheer me up... n it happened again today... i didnt tell my mum earlier dat im gonna met up wif my sis at town... so dis time, i tried to cheer her up... i bought her an Adidas sling bag since she wants a new bag for work... n so we're fine n she is happy wif it... yes its Adidas! my mum likes sport brands like Nike, Adidas n Fila... she wears a Nike shoe, Reebok jacket n uses bags from Fila n Converse for work b4.... isnt my mum cool... even though she works as a parking attendant, a.k.a minah parking, she always wanna look gd n feel comfortable while working... but still not for showing off... she always say dis to me, atleast look gd if u're not gd looking... means if u're not gd looking, atleast manage ur look, eg. style, clothes, so dat u still haf a pleasant appearance...
even wen i let them down...
even wen i dun share my problems to them...
even if they dun always express their love...
no matter wat, i'll always love dis family of mine...
im happy having a great family... however, my mind still says dat im not happy... theres dis inner voice which says dat im LOL(lack of love)... but where can i find dat true love i need.... juz like a puzzle wif a missing piece... without dat piece, d puzzle wont be beautiful coz its not complete... so wheres dat missing piece?
How Happy Are You?
You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.
You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.
Are You Happy Or Sad?
The wind may sigh as it blows through the sky, and lately...you've been sighing too. It might be a case of "the blues," but if you've experienced more "frowns" than "smiles" recently, better check it out. Talk to someone. Find support. Consult a counsellor. It's important to realize that there's plenty that can be done, regardless of how dark your life may temporarily seem. There is hope!!!
Are You Lucky In Love?
Your record, so far, is smeared by cranky luck.
But that doesn't mean that your love chart is destined to stagger forever.
Some luck is inescapable, but often temporary.
Sometimes a bad streak can alter its path through an act of consistent will.
Let's hope that your luck changes soon.
zul, posted @ 11:41 AM
Saturday, April 22, 2006
dis is so so so so pathetic..... disappointed... bored... at home... slack....
changed d music video to dis one... coz Perpisahan Terasing is a sad song... so i dun wanna make ppl sad animore... especially Syirah... aniway, dis song is dedicated to u! coz u r my aura... ;)
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Ada Band - Kau Auraku
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Malam kehadiran cinta
Sambut jiwa baru
Telah lama kutunggu
Hadirmu disini
Namun hanya ruang semu
Yang nampak padaku
Meski sulit harus kudapatkan
Kerinduan yang mendalam
Terbitkan hasratku
Sambutlah tangan ini terima janjiku
Rasakan cinta yang tulus
Lewat aliran darahmu
Menyatu seiring dalam kasih
[chorus]
Kau auraku...
Oh pancarkan sepercik harapan
Datanglah merasuk men...jelma
Meleburkan cinta
Kubawa kau terbang
Menembus awan yang beriring
Kembangkan senyuman
Bagai bunga
Bawa keindahan
Tak dapat kusangkali
Adanya dirimu
Yang s'lalu menaungi
Pikiran batinku
Ingin miliki hatimu
Takkan pernah
Terlepaskan
Kupersembahkan
Semua padamu
[repeat chorus 2x]
kau auraku...
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zul, posted @ 8:27 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
another day of slackin...
was suppose to go town wif Hairi... but it was cancelled coz he wen out wif his mom... weekend it is...
so ended up being home alone... even my sis wen out wen d rain stopped... but nvm.. it wasnt dat boring afterall... i got Syirah to chat wif... from talking bout serious matter to making me laugh non-stop... lol...
to Syirah: hope dat u r doing fine... be strong aite... im sure u will be ok... in dis case, let go n let God k... as i've said, maybe God haf sumthin better for u... so dun worry too much dear... watever it is, im always here for u...
"perpisahan itu sungguh menyedihkan... tapi semuanya di tangan takdir...."
zul, posted @ 7:03 PM
Monday, April 17, 2006
i am now officially an IT student of ITE Dover!! ahahahaha... wen to register n made payment dis afternoon... n i had to take dis color blindness test.. lol... its sumthin like dis one http://www.toledo-bend.com/colorblind/Ishihara.html.... but theres more of it... so skool is gonna start like soon.... damn! on 2nd May... n b4 dat on 28 April, theres orientation programme... i think im gonna join floorball for cca... hahahaha... its fun ok... n also, Shahidah is in d same course!! yea!! lol! hope dat everything is gonna be OK...
zul, posted @ 11:37 PM
Thursday, April 13, 2006
yea~!! sumthin new~! lol... im accepted to study in ITE Dover for Higher Nitec in IT!!!!!!!! thank god! its such a great relieve to noe dat theres hope n i can still continue my study! even though i dun get to focus more on multimedia, lets juz hope dat IT will not be a bad one for me... atleast i got a gd start n sum experience even b4 attending skool... n even if its ITE, n not poly, its still a skool... theres an advantage going to ITE first actuali... coz i realise dat i can gain more knowledge n experience on dat course so dat i wont haf much problem on it n will be ready to go poly...
im very happy now... but not fully happy yet! *stare at syirah*
hahahaahahaa...
so i juz realise dat 2morrow is Friday... n yea.. its Good Friday... a HOLIDAY! *hint* *hint* lol... but aniway, if my parents aren't working 2morrow, i think we will be going up north to Kulai! to send those cloth to be sew into our Hari Raya clothes... haha... so my baju kurung for dis year will be grey n green... while last year's which r blue n contrast of green + maroon, r still wearable... eh y did i choose for green again dis year!? alamak.. haha... nvm lah... its 2 diff green... hmm... but if my dad will be working 2morrow, den maybe i will juz be rotting at home... *bang head on d table*
aniway.. i was bored n so i took some of dis test...
The Your Type of Girl Test
The Favorite Friend
62% Sexy-Cute, 72% Dark-Light, 52% Artsy-StylishCute, Light, and neither Artsy nor Stylish, she's that friend we've all had. The great girl. The one we've been friends with since the third grade. The one who laughs at our jokes and sends funny text messages.
The Relationship Comittment Test
Comitted Lover
You scored 85% Comittment!Like the "lover" below you, you have many attractive qualities and the opposite sex is likely very eager to be with you. Not only are you open and honest but you are also tolerant and patient. You likely have all the pre-requisites of a healthy long-term relationship! Don't fret if you run through a few unsuccessful relationships, some people won't realize what a great person you are and only want a good time! Take things slow and your true love will appear eventually!
The How Trustworthy Are You Test
"Trusty Samurai"
You scored and 84% in Trustworthiness!You are a very good person who in general believes in the good of others before your own. You'll always have the back of your friends even in extreme situations. You are an honorable person who will stay trustworthy through thick and thin. You are seldom selfish, but are caring enough to compensate for that. You remind people of a Trusty Samurai...following the honor code and staying true to your word...Good Day...Trusty Samurai!
The How much can you love Test
Devoted
You have 18 love points!You believe in love and believe that love like any other human feeling needs sacrifices and you are ready to make them. Well good for you and that makes you admirable. Keep it up and you will get that happy ending we all want. ;)
tak guna ada mata,
kalau tak pandai melihat...
tak guna ada telinga,
kalau tak pandai mendengar...
tak guna ada hati,
kalau tak pandai menilai....im very IRRITATED by YOU! yes! even though u're not irritating me directly, but i noe how dat first person feels like n i AM very very irritated.... u said to her dat u understand her feelings... but it seems like u dun... n dun u noe wat it means wen she seldom reply u? atleast Endang noe wat it means wen i ignore her... u're such a dumb ass... can i juz smack u reali hard on d head so dat u noe wats going on here? or izzit dat u wan me to juz shoot u in d head?
zul, posted @ 6:33 PM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
alrite... so wats new? hah... nothin new YET... everything is d same... aniway, i've applied for higher nitec in IT which is at ITE Dover... as from wat dat ITE teacher advice me... n i've got no idea wen will d result be out... will it be arnd end of May or earlier... coz my dad wen to talk to dat teacher again regarding my NS defferment which i haf to submit by 29 April, n he said dat he is very sure dat im gonna get to study IT... hope so... if its still not successful den he will ask d MP to write a letter to ITE...
so currently my life is back to dat slacking routine since im not working animore... wake up... bath... eat... use d comp... listen to music/radio... bath... eat... watch tv... use d comp again... sleep.... haiz..... sumtimes i feel like going for a jog... i wanna play street soccer! i wanna go jamming! i wanna meet u!! im juz waiting for dat sumone to declare herself to be free on a certain day... den i'll be very alive... hehehe... date me out plssss~ lol! *smack on d head*
ok.. while im typing dis... im actuali watching The OC.. yea.. dat repeat season 2 on channel 5 at 2am... i kinda feel like im Seth.. he keeps on sighing wen Summer didnt understand wat his heart is trying to say and how nice he is to Summer even wen she is seeing sumone else... he is juz like The OC version of me... except dat he is way more cooler den me lah... orite... dats crap... *sigh~*
here goes d lyric for dis song... quite meaningful though.... perfect for all those sighing... lol... *sigh~*
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Padi - Menanti Sebuah Jawaban
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Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku tak terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu
[chorus]
Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu
Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yg terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
[repeat chorus 3x]
Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
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zul, posted @ 2:23 AM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
first of all, i juz wanna make a shout out...(again)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR SYIRAH!!
May everything about ur day be special, coz dats wat U r... ;)
n btw, sori dat i haf to break my promise... :sorite now... i met my MP last nite regarding my application for ITE which was being withdrawn... since he noe my family well, especially my dad, so we tried to get help from him... besides Mr Arthur Fong, theres dis man whu do all those interviewing during dat meet-the-people session, gave me a
lecture since he taught in ITE b4... urgh~ he suggested me to try registering for Higher Nitec in IT or Digital Media Design... but i tot Digital Media Design is Nitec... hmm....
n its still confusing lah... coz d last time i met another ITE teacher whu is my dad's fren also, he told me to choose d course dat im very interested in... but now after meeting dis recent ITE teacher, he suggested me to choose IT coz its d so called "mother" of programming, designs n all those stuffs dat got to do wif computers... n den i feel like he is looking down on me coz i applied for Multimedia Technology n not IT in Higher Nitec... its like he tot dat i chose Multimedia Technology coz its easy... n den he said bout playing games everyday, every year, Warcraft 1, 2, 3... bla bla bla... dun juz simply play games... u got to learn to hack them n den u will noe wats going on around d game.... haiz....... jgn asal bole tembak lah.... i dun play Warcraft... n yes, i hack games b4... from adding custom objects in The Sims to changing bout 90% of all the vehicles in Grand Theft Auto... n wen my sis said i use d computer almost everyday, its not dat i use it juz for entertainment... i got a blog, a website wif an online portfolio, an original shortfilm, i do video editing, some graphic designs.... hmm... wat else... n i did dat all on my own wif d knowledge n skill i've learnt by myself.... he shud be suprised if he had ask whether i did those stuffs b4....
he also ask me to think of my next 5 years plan... wat do i wanna be n do in d next 5 years... so wen i noe wat i wanna be, i haf to plan my route to achieve wat i wanna be... den theres dis funny thing, but quite logical, dat i've learnt from Mr Arthur Fong... he said
life is like having lots of galfrens n choosing d rite one to be ur wife... lol... wat he meant is dat in life, theres lots of oppurtunities to choose from n i haf to make d rite decision to choose wat i want so dat i wont regret having it...
so im now in d confused state... follow d advice from d earlier ITE teacher or d recent one.... shud i choose Multimedia Technology/Digital Media Design or IT.... my interest or for better benefit.... haiz..............
aniway, i've
stop working for gd... i juz wanna use d time i haf to settle my skoolin problems... so it was my last day at work juz now since we're done wif dat troublesome Project Pixel.... actuali it wasnt dat difficult working in a market research company... but d only thing dat makes us stress n go crazy is d large amount of workload... so gdbye Acorn~ lol...
zul, posted @ 11:37 AM
