Sunday, October 30, 2005
she's back......... yes... izzit for gd or bad, i got no idea... but she is still like d ______ i used to noe... she sounds so friendly.... hmm.. if dis reali happen, shud i or shud i not fall for her again? i noe she's attached... but i dun wanna destroy a couple's relationship... haiz... i better be careful now... lets juz wait n see wats next...
p.s,
Syirah is d sweetest n she is my Ms Brightside!
zul, posted @ 12:48 AM
Friday, October 28, 2005
happy birthday to me~ happy birthday to me~ lalaalaalalaala~
hmm.. its juz like any other day.. only dat im now 17 years OLD... n i woke up today wif a pain on d right side of my chest... :s
.first person to wish me was Kak Syiqin!! haha.. she called n was soo happy to be first...
-everyone gets old rite Kak Syiqin?
.den it was Mark!! he wish me on msn...
-yea~! we are now 17! eh btw Khai is still 15 lah.. havent 16 yet... lol...
.next was Syirah!!! i received her msg after i had my sahur...
-u're d sweetest! n i'll always be here for u too... *hugs*
.next up, Jaz n Ct!! i was still sleeping seh.. ;)
-thankz for d short n sweet msg... n Jaz, thankz for ur very advance wish... hehe..
.Zulkarnain!!
-thankz for dat testi... u remembered my bday eh.. gd boy.. haha...
.next, Jannah!!
-thankz for ur testi too... didnt expect u to wish me... ;)
.den it was Celine!!
-u gif me a testi, u tag, u wish me in msn.. haha... thankz for all dat...
.Victor!!
-u juz knew dat my bday is today huh? ;) thankz!
.after dat, Itah!!
-thankz for ur wishes... n i hope so dat i can find sum1 whu wanna spend her lifetime wif me... ;)
.den, Jun Wei!!
-thankz for ur sms... n gd luck to u too...
.last but not least, Aziela!!
-its now 1am+ d next day already lah... u r very very late... haha.. it doesnt matter lah... thankz aniway...
those r my frens whu wished me... did i missed out anione? hmm.. no! i didnt! i keep track of it u noe... lol...
woah~ i took such a long time to type dis out eh... its now 29 Oct... oow... sumone's bday... hmm.. but i think it means nothin to me now... 28 n 29 Oct? nothin sweet... err... does it? *gedebush*
i remembered dat Kak Syiqin wrote me a poem for my bday last year... i wanna put it in my archive... so here it goes...
Saying goodbye to yesterday
My farewells to you
A new day begins
I have packed my heart full of memories
Things that I need to remember you by
Your smile, your laughter, your eyes
This suitcase may seems light to your eyes
But you dont know the weight of it agaisnt my heart
I know you have cried and hurt for me
But that wont change a single thing
Nothing can be compared to my love for you
We have both loved and hurt
Thats why Im singing this song for you
Try to gather the remaining pieces of my shattered heart
Lets move on, Lets face the dawn, away from the stillnes of the night
I'll trade some with you, as a token of our past
And wear it on a chain around my neck
You know you are not the one for me
And you cant love me the way I want you to
Hand in hand, we broke the circle
As the seconds tick by, we tried to hold on
All the maybes, what ifs and the could bes
I try not to turn back and run straight to your arms again
Coz we both know, deep down oh yes we know
Tried to smile thorugh the tears as dawn awakes
Saying goodbye to yesterday
My farewells to you
A new day begins
how is it? sweet eh? hehe.. thankz again Kak Syiqin...
n yea.. Hari Raya is juz around d corner... (exams too... :S sumone shoot me!) so i put those guitars n drums to rest... n invite Siti Nurhaliza to sing for us her Hari Raya song instead... lol... enjoy! n u can sing along too!! haha...
zul, posted @ 11:56 PM
Monday, October 24, 2005
wen to geylang yesterday afternoon... every1 was shopping for hari raya... my sis, mum, auntie n cuzzins bought their cloths... i alreadi got 1... its alreadi at d tailor.. so i tot 1 is alreadi enuf for me since i will also be celebrating hari raya in my skool uniform... but my mum bought me another 1 coz my sis said so dat i will not be juz wearing d same 1 throughout dis year hari raya... there was 1 bajung kurung which was reali nice n very exclusive... n they got Taufik Batisah as their model... but it cost $140!! i whispered to my mum "d price is nice too"... d makcik was alreadi persuading me to get one... she said since my mum gonna pay for it den y not... wth... she tot im d type of person whu take advantage to get gd stuffs easily or wat?? i rather pay it using my own money or juz get another cheaper but also nice stuff elsewhere... n yea i got a cheaper 1... n den theres dis stupid thing happen at Tanjong Katong Complex... a guy from d 2nd level drop his hp... not to d floor.. but down to level 1!! lol!!! luckily it didnt hit sum1's head... stupid..
.dun show ur love to d person dat u love... coz instead of appreciating u, they will end up taking advantage...
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The Killers - Mr Brightside
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I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go
I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside
I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go
I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibi
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside
I never...
I never...
I never...
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zul, posted @ 6:17 PM
Sunday, October 23, 2005
last nite... first it was juz a missed call... n den a msg... wishing me an advance happy birthday...
im speechless n clueless... is she juz wishing for d sake of wishing... since its a culture to wish ppl wen its their birthday... hmm.. i dunno... usuali d thoughts dat count... so i wonder wat does she actuali think of me... only god knows...
haiz.......
zul, posted @ 1:40 AM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
y muz history repeat itself...
October... Ramadan... my birthday... exams...
it was around dis time last year... wen dat special person left me without a reason... my life started to became miserable... d world became darker... i cant focus...
its d same time dis year... wen d ppl i care left me without thinking twice... im hopeless... d light is fading away... d world is getting darker again... i cant focus... again...
wat a birthday present...
certified emo...
the bright side is not as bright as b4... but for those whu still stays on d bright side of me, u're not fading, u're shining... u're d 1 dat i will be holding on to... i'll cherish every single 1 dat is still wif me... "u can haf d best of me" too... so, thank u...
zul, u cant fight fate too...
.good things won't last forever.
zul, posted @ 2:49 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
had a family gathering on sunday... almost all of my maternal side came to my house to break fast... there was quite alot of food... but i dun get to eat much... n den we had movie premiere of The Necklace... n they enjoyed... lol...
u can keep on smiling... laughing... gossiping.. n calling dat person sum1 special...
u juz dun noe d truth behind all truth... its so funny to see dat sum1 treating u "nicely"....
i can still smile in my sleep... lol... *wink to dat sum1*
zul, posted @ 3:17 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
juz had 2 slice of pizza for supper... lol...
I AM FROM TANGLIN!! lol... yesterday wen for Graduating Ceremony in skool at around 7.30pm... so before dat had to break fast at class.. i ordered pizza at around 5.15pm... they say it will be around 1 hour 30 mins and they will call me wen they r on their way to skool... but den d delivery guy call me at around 6pm saying dat he is alreadi in skool while i was juz on my way there... so i reali had to rush to skool.. till i sweat wen i reached skool... lol... so break fast we had pizza, hot devil chickens, rojak, epok-epok.... i only ate 1 slice of pizza, 1 piece of chicken, 1 epok-epok n im alreadi full... after dat met up wif my sis for d ceremony... i was d last person to receive d file... i got tired of waiting... but wen its my turn, i shook hand wif Mrs Shirley Abdullah, Mr Abdullah Tarmugi's wife, n she said "certainly last but not least... haha... gd luck n all the best for ur exam..." lol... i juz join her wif d laughter n said thank u... n d applause was quite loud... i dunno if d ppl r clapping for me or izzit bcoz im d last person so yea its over... lol... but its quite a memorable nite lah...
my mum has been complaining bout d kitten being so noisy... but shes complaining all bout it to ME... juz ME, MYSELF n I... i didnt tend to adopt a cat.... it was my sis... n my mum noe dat... but y is she nagging at me? y didnt she nag at my sis? scared or wat? as if my sis gonna beat her up... wth... im sick n tired of hearing her nag bout d kitten to me... n btw my mum got a phobia of kittens coz last time maybe b4 i was born, they used to haf a kitten n my mum accidentally step on d kitten n it died... lol!
.the truth hurts.
zul, posted @ 1:33 AM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
i survived! lol... break fast alone wif pizza~ 3 slice n im full... i juz need a lot of water... like yesterday, played soccer during p.e... was damn thirsty after dat... in danger zone of dehydration... but i hold on n i survived! lol...
im tired~ tired of kitten-sitting... haha... n my hands became into a scrathing post... haiz....
zul, posted @ 8:23 PM
took a day off from skool today... i feel so restless... so decided to stay home instead... my mum was fine wif it... but aniway, next week is alreadi french leave... but still haf to go back to skool on certain days for lesson... haiz.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SIS!!
may u haf a wonderful life ahead n all d best in everything u do!
my sis brought home a kitten last nite... lol...
no1 is at home... mum, dad n sis r at work... will break fast alone... haiz.......
zul, posted @ 2:45 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
wahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaahahahaha!!!!!!
im crazy today!!
i juz feel like laughing my ass out!!!!
hahahahahahahahahaahahahaahhahahahahaaha!!!!!
d truth hurts?? no!!! d truth is funny!!!!
i even feel like laughing out loud rite straight in ur face!!!! but i wont... coz i pity u.... lol!!!
i'll be smiling in my sleep tonight!!!
wahahahahaha~~!!!
i took a test recommended by Mark to make sure dat im emo... n dis is d result...
Emo Kid
You are 14% Rational, 28% Extroverted, 28% Brutal, and 14% Arrogant.
You are the Emo Kid, best described as a quiet pussy! You tend to be an intuitive rather than a logical thinker, meaning you rely more on your feelings than your thoughts. Not only that, but you are introverted, gentle, and rather humble. You embody all the traits of the perfect emo kid. You are a push-over, an emotional thinker, gentle to the extent of absurdity, and so humble that it even makes Jesus puke. If you write poetry, you no doubt write angsty, syrupy lines about depression, sadness, and other such redundant states of emo-being. Your personality is defective because you are too gentle, rather underconfident in yourself, decidely lacking in any rational thought, and also a bit too inhibited.
I probably made you cry, didn't I? Fucking Emo Kid.
To put it less negatively:
1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational.
2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.
3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.
4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant.
told ya im emo! :p
zul, posted @ 9:17 PM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
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Silverstein - Smile In Your Sleep
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When I'm lying in your bed
play the motions through my head
you know that I'm thinking, I'm thinking...
and I have reasons to believe that I'm not the only
one you spend this time with,
but I'll stay...
[chorus]
You say, you're weak,
you wont let me down [x2]
you lie through your teeth
you smile in your sleep [x2]
When we met
you said we were the same,
you know that we're different, we're different,
and all the times you promised me that
everything would work out in the end,
you were gravely mistaken
[repeat chorus]
You lie [x4],
you lie through your teeth
you wont let me down, you lie
I deserve better than this
I dream of steel.
Maroon and warm, your end.
You gasp for air. I'll see this through,
I'll see through you, your pale blue eyes.
When you're lying in your bed,
your eulogy's been read
You know that it's fitting, you lie.
[repeat chorus]
You smile [x4]
I deserve better than this
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zul, posted @ 2:03 AM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
sorry seems to be d hardest word?
nope.. not for me...
but looks like forgiving seems to be d hardest action...
but not for me too...
i dun f*****g understand y many ppl dun f*****g understand me...
dun mind my language...
i juz need to express my thoughts n feelings...
.keeping everything to myself... causing pain to myself... killing me... slowly...
zul, posted @ 11:02 PM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
i dunno if i shud blog or not... coz i felt dat i dunno whu is reading my blog... whu is supporting my views n whu is not... so wat now? i shud not blog about any of my views any more? so dat i dun make another sin? haiz... i dunno... now i think, its juz ME against the WORLD...
aniway, to all Muslims, happy fasting...
i wrote a song 2 days ago...
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Title: Without a Reason
As I woke up today,
I felt something strange,
is it because of my bed
or something bad gonna happen
I'm not sure of my predict,
so i can't keep myself calm
but later you came up to me,
saying that I'm not good enough
[chorus]
Don't tell me!
you're falling for other guy
or you're out of your mind
Please tell me!
What is wrong with me
what you really want
and say that you still,
still in love with me
I wanted to be perfect
but you said you don't like it.
Cos you prefer that
I am the way I am.
But now I don't understand,
why you're treating me like a trash.
kicking me to the side
letting me walk by myself
[repeat chorus]
Please...
Please tell me...
Please...
Tell me what you mean...
[repeat chorus 2x]
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.i'm a fool.
zul, posted @ 11:45 PM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
to dear Fiqa...
ok.. im sori dat u terase bout dat gals playing rugby matter... but actuali not only 3e1, 3e2 n 3e3.. fyi, i saw gals from other class played rugby too... example 3t1... maybe u dun noe dat coz u were in class having lessons while i was having my free period in d canteen...
bout ur class's rugby match, maybe i was wrong... coz i didnt sit down n watch d whole match but actuali juz a glance... n maybe d crowd dat i saw moving from 1 end of d field to d other end wasnt bcoz of ur team... might be by d other team... i dunno... coz i dun reali recognise whu is in ur team... if its true dat ur team played wif strategy den its gd... n well done coz ur strategy works.... i didnt say clearly dat ur team didnt play wif strategy... i dun even noe if u gals played wif strategy or not... as if theres a bubble above every1's head dat i can see wat were u gals thinking... u get wat i mean?
fine.. call me sexist... or chauvinist... or member of the He-Man Woman Haters Club from d movie Little Rascals... wat ever u want k... but i noe im not like dat... even though there haf been sum nice gals whu used to be close to me but den vanish from my life... if not i wudnt haf hope n wish for those ppl to come back... except dat it makes me emo.. turn me into a hopeless guy wif anger come n go... but sumtimes i became strong... wen theres ppl whu understand n comfort me... n 1 of them is u, Fiqa... yes.. its u... a gal... a female... n i reali appreciate wat u haf done for me... so do u think im being sexist? think again...
sori once again dat i offended u... i noe dis is my blog n i can say wat i want in here... but i did made sum things dat i've said to be oblivous... juz not to make ppl offended... so now i apologise since u r offended n even though wat i said in my previous post is not very clear... ok?
i hope dat u dun haf any cold feelings towards me k... wat i've been through is enuf for me alreadi... u noe wat i mean rite... so i dun wanna lose another nice gal... i still need u in my life...
urs sincerely...
zul, posted @ 2:34 AM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
since September has ended, i change d music video to sumthin else... its by an indonesian band... d title in english is called "wazzup wif u"... lol...
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Peterpan - Ada Apa Denganmu
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Sudah, maafkan aku
Segala salahku
Dan bila kau tetap bisu
Ungkapkan salahmu
(*)
Dan aku, sifatku
Dan aku, khilafku
Dan aku, cintaku
Dan aku, rinduku
Sudah, lupakan semua
Segala berubah
Dan kita terlupa
Dan kita terluka
Back to: (*)
Reff:
Kutanya malam
Dapatkah kau lihatnya perbedaan
Yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa
Kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu ho ho..
Hanya malam dapat meleburkan
Segala rasa yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu
Back to: (*), Reff
Kutanya malam
Dapatkah kau lihatnya perbedaan
Yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa
Kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu ho ho..
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zul, posted @ 2:21 AM
at last.. im back online... dunno wat happen yesterday... my internet connection was gone till today... so my sis call up starhub.. n they only told us to switch off modem, den pc, den on modem... n its back online... wth... its like sooo simple n we cudnt solve d problem... lol...
.i shudnt talk bout my prelim results... coz it sux.. totally... but i think i did improve in my social studies n chemistry... those r my weakest subjects... but still fail though...
lack of motivation...
.gonna study like crazy for O Level... aiming for atleast b4 for maths, science, combined humanities n english... a1 for malay... haf to aim high wat... minimum point i need in order to go poly is eng 1-7 n other 4 subjects, including cca, 1-6... is quite crucial for me since i only got 5 subjects... probably my cca points cud help....
.played soccer during p.e. today against d 4N... in d parade square... but we lose... coz our team is not formed... i missed quite a lot of chance... its fun though... but still, i cant forget last year's p.e. session... we played soccer in d parade square... it was better coz my class is always energetic wen it comes to soccer... n we haf enuff ppl to make 2 teams n play against each other... n den there will be audience around d parade square watching us play... from level 1 all d way up to level 4... we were famous for like 1 period n sumtimes 2 period coz we continued playing till recess... lol...
.watching gals in skool playing rugby is such a bore... (no names/class mentioned) they will ALL be running for dat 1 ball... not spreading out at all... they r juz not using any strategy... spread out lah... play passing... n not moshing... n yet they can say its fun... hah.. wth...
d way 5n1 guys play rugby is wat i call fun... n d gals running back to class wen Mrs Koh was already in d middle of d field is funny... lol... slow reaction...
.theres dis gal at _____________ in ______________ today, was "touching" d other gal beside her without a reason! it was juz in a sudden... hahaha.. my fren n i was like WTF!! n we were juz behind them!! we juz laugh n they still didnt notice dat we were laughing at them... we got goose bumps man....
ok.. dats all for now...
check out My Problem's blog to listen to our first single.. its a song writen by Khai n Mark...
peace out!
zul, posted @ 1:03 AM
