Saturday, March 26, 2005
yesterday.. was awaken by d msg tone of my hp... n it was a msg from her... she sent me a pic of us.. d 1 i made using photoshop... n she also said "remember dis?"... so i replied to her "yuh.. y?".... n she juz simply replied me "nothin".... dun u feel frustrated wen u wanna noe sumthin so much n u ask y den d answer u get is juz "nothin"?? im sure u will feel frustrated too... haiz... so after receiving her "nothin" reply, i wen back to sleep.... woke up again n questions started to appear in my head....
y is she doing dis?? wats her intention?? wat izzit dat she wants from me??
wat? izzit dat she wants me in her life again?? will it be good or bad for me den?? shud i accept her if dis is true?? of coz i noe i can atleast gif her a chance if it is going to be sumthin good for us... haiz...... yeah.. im confused... ask my heart... dats wat kak syiqin said...
do i still like her? -hmm... probably...
do i still love her? -how cud i? i juz dun get d chance.. rite?
do i still haf feelings for her? -i do miss her sumtimes... so i guess its a yes...
haiz...... watched Janji Diana dat nite... n theres sum catch phrases Rosyam Nor said where i find it meaningful... such as "aku sanggup berkorban, kalau kau sanggup berubah" or in english "i am willing to sacrifice as long as u r willing to change"... maybe i can use dat phrase wen i talk to her... yeah.. sum day...
orite.. enuf of her... i actuali felt like going to town since yesterday... i wanna do sum shopping... buy a nice white tshirt so i can wear it wif my Levi's khaki... n a tshirt from Image 2001 maybe Famous Stars & Straps dis time to add to my collection... but my sis is still busy wif her project.... haiz... how i wish i had sum1 whu always wanna go out n spend time wif me.... ENUF ZUL!! ok ok... n i also dun get to play ps2 at my cuzzin's house since my sis is so busy.... *sob sob*
today... wen for Mendaki's SPEED tuition at jurong east BMC from 2pm to 4pm... so every saturday will be having english tuition... n maths on tuesday from 7 30pm to 9 30pm... so d lesson juz now was ok... its my first english tuition session... i guess same goes for d other students... so we juz discuss on doing compre n den we had a break n after d break d other students want d teacher to do sum intro... so we intro ourselves till d class is over... wen home after dat n slack at home since i dun get to play ps2 or go town yet....
signing off~
>i think i need a miracle to make it thru<
zul, posted @ 11:34 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
we received our certificate n present d merit award trophy for sva to d principle yesterday during morning assembly... luckily i wasnt late for skool... reached skool on time n i dunno where to go to get ready for d prize giving... *gedebush* n fiza saw me n called me to assemble behind d counsellors.. haha.. step counsellor seh... *bluek~* after flag raising n its time.. my heart beats so fast coz i always get nervous wen many ppl will be staring at us... aniway things r not fully prepared... our new member whu sat wif us behind d counsellor didnt follow us to d stage to assist cekgu hidayah wif d certificate n all... haiyoh... so hairi haf to do it instead n receive his cert also... hmm... oh yuh.. wen i was up there at d flag pole platform, i took d chance to look at d whole skool n i had a glance of her... *sigh~* orite enuff bout dat... so after dat skool was as per normal... after skool me, shahid n wan met up wif hafiz n den nad... we wen to play soccer at cage... but wan wen home... played a few games n wen home at arnd 5+....
today, skool was slack... coz there was basic... n theres house meeting also, the most boring time through out skool... said didnt come... p.e was ok... only me, afiq, jun wei n chee fatt played soccer... we juz played sum shootin n passin... mr lee didnt come again... had our maths lesson at mrs koh class again.... got sleepy n fell asleep... *opps~* skool end... wen home straight...
tommorrow is a holiday~!! n no homewerk~!! i wanna go play ps2~!!
btw i think i wont wanna go to simple plan concert... coz its on a damn normal skooling wednesday nite!
orite till here for now...
signing off~
zul, posted @ 6:08 PM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
damn! im so lazy.... im such a lazy asshole... hah.. i still got 3 more malay assignments to be done.. im so lazy..... or maybe i need sum1... sum1 special... to motivate me... so dat i'll not be lazy animore or i'll force myself for d sake of dat person... hmm..... whu will dat person be... hah.. forget bout it zul.... stop dreaming... loner! yeah rite... i need a miracle... orite now.. wanna dedicate dis music video to.... me! yeah.. dats rite.. to me....
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Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams
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I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone
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zul, posted @ 9:38 PM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
dun feel like blogging actuali.. coz im juz not happy wif my holiday...
mon - movie club
tues - workshop on tips of answering malay 'o' level paper..
wed - y2y camp
thurs - y2y camp
fri - survey for music video at sentosa...
im outta here.. nothin else to talk about... *dead*
zul, posted @ 5:55 PM
Thursday, March 10, 2005
wen to town juz now... bought a ripcurl wallet as a present for sum1 bday... actuali i shared money wif sum ppl to buy it... im so jealous i didnt get dat wallet... i shud b d 1 whu get dat wallet first b4 dat person... coz dat person like d wallet wen i told dat person those wallets r cool.... :( nvm.. im gonna save up sum money n i'll buy it... its juz $59...
dis is so troublesum.... got no voice... n i haf to type out wat i wanna say on my hp n show it to d person dat i wanna talk to... omg... y does it haf to happen to me.... or is there a miracle behind all dis sickness n i'll get a nicer voice wen it cures? haiz...... cant sing n shout at home... so boring.... :_( my temperature is still high... 38.4 degress celsius... sumtimes i shiver n sumtimes my body feel hot n gonna sweat... n 2morrow haf to go skool.... :_(
zul, posted @ 8:48 PM
my sickness is getting worst~!!! losing my voice n having flu now.... damn it!!!
so boring.. no1 is online rite now...
zul, posted @ 10:30 AM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
orite.. heres sum update... didnt go for cross country today.... coz im sick.. having fever n cough.. my temperature is 38.7 degrees celsius.. im not bluffing lah kak syiqin.... ;p will not be coming to skool 2morrow also... den on friday will be going to ngee ann poly for dat "academy award"... hahaha...
yesterday after movie club wen to mark's house... was suppose to discuss bout our music video which we gonna take at sentosa... but in d end we played ps2... btw.. saw her in d same bus dat we took to mark's house... i was speechless.... n i was like missing her a lil... den at mark's house, she msg me...
zul, posted @ 11:39 AM
