Tuesday, September 28, 2004
zul, posted @ 5:31 PM
Monday, September 20, 2004
hmm... 1st of all.. congrats to my fren... im quite happy for u too... but for me, im still not happy wif my life... i dun even noe wen is my turn gonna b...im juz unlucky i guess.... but y m i so unlucky??? im even jeles of hasni whu haf a gf now... *salute hasni* atleast theres sum1 whu reali love her even though his physical state is worse den me... wats wrong wif me??? is there sumthing not right wif me???? haiz.... i think im suffering from depression... i cry wenever i feel like crying and also wen im all alone n thinking bout d sad thing or d sweet memories.... im saying dis coz i cried juz now as i was thinking of her n my life.... my life sucks.... i hate it.... i feel so hopeless..... i feel like dying... but im scared of god n wats waiting for me wen im dead... haiz..... y my life haf to b like dis?? y i dun get d things dat i wan???? wheres my luck?? wheres my chance?? wheres my hope?? argh~!!!!!! i hate dis!!!!!!!!!!
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Blink 182 - Down
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The drops of rain they fall all over
This awkward silence makes me crazy
The glow inside burns light upon her
I'll try to kiss you if you let me
(this can't be the end)
Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Your vows of silence fall all over
The look in your eyes makes me crazy
I feel the darkness break upon her
I'll take you over if you let me
(You did this)
Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad.
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
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zul, posted @ 10:49 PM
Sunday, September 19, 2004
.not in a good mood
.feeling hopeless, useless
.heartbroken as usual
.loner
.headache
.bored
.missing her
zul, posted @ 4:19 PM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
haiz............... im depressed... i dunno wats going on wif her... all of a sudden she always been busy on d phone wif sum1 else... i think it muz b her x... coz she haf been like dis since d 3 days ago wen her x contact back wif her...... haiz....... "im all alone tonight~" 2 days alreadi i called her at night n den she said she will call me back later coz she was on d line wif sum1... but in the end she did not call me back... haiz....................... msg pon mcm nak, tak nak.... asal sak~~?!?!
buto nyer ****!! knn!! cibye!!! fuck u!!! asshole!!! motha fucker!! bastard!! sial!!!
argh!!!!!!!! binget sak!!!
wen to town yesterday... wif my sis of coz... whu else wanna go town wif me rite... :( haiz..... i bought Rip Curl slippers which cost $19.90... den wen to far east... go to Image2001... bought dis shirt which cost $45...
n they gif me dis carrier...
i spent $64.90 in juz 1 day... haiz........ i've got no mood to type animore.... so heres d lyric for dis music video.... i chose dis song coz i feel like im "here without you(her)"....
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3 Doors Down - Here Without You
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A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
it get hard but it won't take away my love
I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
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its me again...
fuck off!
zul, posted @ 3:03 PM
Thursday, September 02, 2004
hmm... got back my hp from her juz now... den i took d bus wif her coz she wanna top up her ezlink at clementi interchange... hmm... she left a message for me in my hp... it says...
"zul.. i noe dat i haf hurt u so much.. but i wan u to noe dat i wont leave u like dat.. coz i reali treasure u so much.. d memories dat we had spent 2gether reali mean to me.. i do love u wif all my heart.. i noe u feel d same way as me.. but dun think dat i will leave u once again.. i promise dat zul.. i'll keep our memories in my mind always.. no matter wat, u'll always in my heart.. n we will b d bez of frens always... promise! i'll always b by ur side if u need me!"
im so touched once again... btw...
.fiza... thankz for lending me ur shoulder to lean on to... n thankz for d advice n encouragement u haf gif me... i reali appreciate it....
.ayu n kak syeeqeen... thankz for d advice aniway...
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Good Charlotte - Hold On
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This world, this world is cold
But you don't, you don't have to go
You're feeling sad you're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You're mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare
But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go thru
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Your days you say they're way too long
And your nights you can't sleep at all (hold on)
And you're not sure what you're waiting for
But you don't want to no more
And you're not sure what you're looking for
But you don't want to no more
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...hold on
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know...hold on...........
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zul, posted @ 6:28 PM
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
haiz.... if ani1 realize my mood... im broken hearted again... for d 2nd time.... haiz......... her feelings towards me had juz fade away.... exactly as i tot since d way she treated me is diff..... but she also told me dat no matter wat im still in her heart.... haiz..........................
"maybe i'm juz not good enough for u..."
"i wanna feel the way you make me feel when i'm with you, i wanna be the only hand you need to hold on to..."
"i guess i'll never get to call you mine..."
"i wonder why you left me here, i think about it on and on again..."
"a part of me is gone and i'm not moving on... so wait for me, i know the day will come... i'll meet you there..."
"i wish i could have told you, the words i kept inside, but now i guess it's just too late... so many things remind me of you, i hope that you can hear me, i miss you...."
"i can't pretend i don't care when you don't think about me... do you think i deserve this?"
"i tried to make you happy but you left anyway..."
"i'm trying to forget that i'm addicted to you, but i want it and i need it, i'm addicted to you... now it's over, can't forget what you said and i never wanna do this again... heartbreaker...."
"how long will i be waiting? until the end of time... i don't know why i'm still waiting... i can't make you mine..."
"so now maybe after all these years, if you miss me have no fear, i'll be here... i'll be waiting..."
- Simple Plan; No Pads, No Helmets... Just Balls.
zul, posted @ 5:14 PM
